Tuesday, May 30, 2006
i am soo tired...
[Yawnz.....damn tired la....]Yoz....reli tired...for the past two days, my shift is from 730am to 430pm....good thing is, can reli go home early....bad thing is, reli tired to wake up in the morning....so i was abt ten mins late yest u noe? Cannot be late la, not good for annual appraisal....then another thing is, i worked OT for the past two days oso...maybe thats why i am tired la...but the thing is my OT is only half an hr....its not very much leh...somemore shd be feeling better cos got OT pay...haha....my prev work place where got such incentives? shd be happy what....but still tired....like eyes closing anytime kind...cant be cos i took the k2 class for the past two days ba?? i mean i noe i dun reli like the older chn now....but still, by right i shd be feeling better cos the k2s reli dun need much attention except shouting and raising my voice to ask 31 monkeys to keep quiet....somemore the break is longer leh...hmmm...i reli think the real reason is cos i am not used to waking up so early...then i slept so late...u noe me la...go to bed at eleven, falls asleep at twelve kind...so ya, not enuf slp i think...So can u imagine i gotta work the opening shift on thurs? Gosh...i am glad oni on thurs...when teacher lay hoon asked me, i had no reason to turn down....cant possibly say, "cant cos i cant wake up" ba? ya...good thing is...i am getting my pay tmr!! yay!!! i am so broke la....starting to be in debts oredi...want to clear them asap....haha..talking abt debts....dear told me today he was going to buy camera....which is oso wat i want too!! cos i can take photos with him ma, and i can use it for my work place...the thing is, i need to save first la....cant splurge all on camera...so hmm...camera....oh ya....this sat i have workshop again....i oso want to watch xmen....then follow dear to buy camera..talking abt him...he said he is going to some talk abt buddhism..is it? duno, ya...this evening lo....then actuali asked me want to go with him...its not i dun wan u noe? but i am sooo tired...now oredi want to close my eyes...think i better slp soon....at first want to play maple after blog...now too tired...yawnz...nitez.
Joyce Kho Ming Zhen ♥
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Sunday, May 28, 2006
cold weather...
[Sniff....gosh...my stupid synus....& i wanna watch Xmen 3 la, cos i wan c storm & wolverine!]My nose....if dear sees me...he will comment on my nose...calling me rudolph again...=X. Anyway, today's weather is actually my fav kind...cos its cooling, despite it making my synus nose kena flu again la....i still like it....just played maple....then abit sianz after playing it abt one n a half hrs..hai yo...i m not old but hor, my whole body aches la! Sianz...anyway, even though i tell myself to make my char in maple lvl 70 soon to faster do my third job...but sianz le....cos keep training i still haven lvl up... still 70 something percent to lvl 64...Anyway, dear's mum was so nice la...give me so many dumplings....even vegetarian ones for my mum....very sweet of her cos yesterday i went his hse ma...then she was steaming the dumplings...talking abt which i shd eat one later...try her dumplings, shd be nice since she is a good cook...she last time used to sell fish slice soup de...very nice one u noe? sometimes i went over her hse n eat dinner, oso very nice...hmm....duno today dinner going his hse eat anot leh... and i want to watch xmen 3 leh....i wanna see my fav char storm....cos heard the last stand she is finally flying juz like in the comics and cartoons....muz watch one....maybe next sat.Anyway, tmr is mon....sianz...cos next wk my shift is 730 in the morning to 430...can u imagine??so early!!! Gosh...means i gotta wake up tmr at abt 630!! n that is the latest lor...if i dun want to be late i better wake up at abt 615 am like that.... horrible...when was the last time i woke up so early? sec sch? or JI times? sianz.....but nvm la...i like my work place what...so i cannot keep complaining...just hope tonight i can fall asleep earlier la..u noe me la, slp late de....even go bed at ten plus can fall asleep at two plus de....so hope not the case...if not tmr sure die....hmm...tmr what lesson i am conducting ah? better go take a look now....
Joyce Kho Ming Zhen ♥
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Thursday, May 25, 2006
Looong day today
[Long day today, quite long day tmr]Gosh....today was my long day la...first, i gotta reach centre early, cos the chn going on outing to west coast ma...then, u noe what? actually nobody told me to reach earlier de, or at least maybe teacher lay hoon did la, cos i dun rem le, think my 2 day mc made me a bit retarded...cos she gave me a weird look when i said nobody told me what time....maybe i shd have said i forgot to ask what time or something...after all its like my schedule shd be my prob rite? anyway, ya, the only thing i rem is, today's outing is from 9am to 1pm. then hor... yest nite i told myself i gotta slp early cos i rem them saying they wud need my help, so even tho i duno wat time to reach i can call the centre early tmr n ask lo... Then when i woke up this morning and call the centre...cos my shift shd be from 10am to 7pm...but they said they wud need my help, so i guess i am needed to go la? anyway, back to the point, i called them at seven plus....called like thrice u noe? then nobody answered...i looked at the timing by rite the centre shd be open le ah...then called again...by abt eight, nobody ans so i was thinking, might as well go cos in case ma, they did say they needed my help ma...Lucky ah! i went u noe...reached at abt 8:55 am....they were already busy packing...thats when i went and asked teacher lay hoon the timing cos if i work one hr earlier than my shift, then pay how and i told her nobody told me abt what time i need to reach....that was when she gave me the look...like maybe suggesting either "i thought i told u?" or "i thought sup told u?" or "u shd take the initiative and ask what!"....hmm...i think its all three ba...duh...cos ya, in any case she is right to think of it that way de....Hope she dun think so badly of me or what la, the last thing i need is conflicts with colleagues. Well, she was kind enuf to tell me its considered OT....so i am working from 9am to 7pm...Anyway, ya, lucky me, i worked until abt 640pm cos my class chn all went home le...shd be till 7 de....duh...i am being retarded again la....how can it be lucky? i got tuition at eight near my centre oni....cos both my centre n my tuition at choa chu kang what...gosh. Anyway, hong laoshi was very nice la, cos she is the one who tell me that i can leave once the children of my class left le..i duno u noe? cos i tot gotta work my full shift...as in 10 to 7 ma...then she told me cos i came earlier today ma...so OT instead of one hr, half an hr will do....so ok lor...i oso dun wan to face the k2s...i duno why la...last time i used to prefer teaching k1s and k2s, even tho i find the younger ones cuter...duh..like who dun rite? but now....i actuali start to prefer teaching the younger ones...perhaps cos teaching them is only one hr, i mean like even if i prefer the k2s and k1s, but the thing is, i gotta take care of them for the whole day and face them the whole day u noe? unless i can find a k1 class i like as much as my attachment one la, if not wah....face them whole day just cos i prefer teaching them which will last only an hr? hmm....no thanks lor....Another possibility is that i think i am beginning to enjoy teaching toddlers...i guess last time is cos i afraid they wun give much reaction ba, then u noe my attachment is graded and field supervisor will come n observe n grade so i dun dare to try ba....but now after i took them...i realize as long as i can crap (not reli nonsense kind la) but as in keep talking in an interesting way, they will be absorbed. of cos the activity muz be interesting too la.....Gosh, cant believe i am going on abt my toddlers....anyway, ya today i reached home at abt 10 40pm....so late rite? i worked more than 12 hrs today....thats why its a looong day....good thing is tmr i work 10am to 7pm...hmm...thinking abt work...gosh my 2 day mcs ah...reli make me so lack behind u noe? Guess what? today at west coast park i was so hungry, i ate mcdonalds, cos we are not allowed to go too far to buy food....and i just recovered u noe? still got a little throat pain....duno whether i am committin suicide....Haiz...feel so bad for hong laoshi la....her mother in law is very ill....got cancer...n i understand fully...having lost my aunt 2 yrs ago to colon cancer..the one whereby everyone in my family says i look like....my aunt is very nice to me de....i rem how shaken i was when she passed away...freaking thing was, my grandpa passed away at the same yr u noe?? just like when my porpor passed away the same yr as my great grandmother....gosh....n my porpor died of cancer too......so anyway, ya, honglaoshi not coming to work for the next few days ba....hmm....hope everything will be alright for her...but i guess considering what she had been telling me, quite gone case, i mean i m not being crude or what la, just saying the truth, the weight loss and the doc oso say no cure le...i rem my aunt n grandpa passed away...they lost alot of weight too...hai ya! suddenly talk abt cancer n death...its a common n hereditary thing in my father's side what....cancer i mean...thats why the doc asked my dad n shushu to go checkup oso...but anyway...dun wanna tok abt that...ya, what to wear tmr to centre ah? hmm.....duno whether wan wear skirt anot...wellz...c how la.........oh ya! haiz...today didnt get to play maple sia...haiz...so happy yest when maple had new map...toyland u noe? then after that keep getting logout...dear says he didnt play cos he is waiting for me to level...dotz...he has to wait for a loooong time....his level is like 85? my level is like 63? and i m forever stuck at 63....gosh...no time to play what! anyway, i went tuition today and my cute Dolly scored better for her eng la..good...happy....she is smart la, plus my credit as her tutor..hee! Anyway, ya she told me abt this game..habbo or habbo hotel? Geez..i dun even have time for maple, do u think i have time for habbo? even my neopets oso kena neglected like what le....n i tell u i wil spend my free time on maple lor!! i die die oso want to go thru 3rd job at level 70...try to close up the dist in lvl between me n dear la.....hmm....maybe i shd blog less....but u noe maple can be very sianz cos take very looong time to level..i am surprised that i can train my fire mage to lvl 63 le....anyway...gotta go zzzz..tmr got work u noe.....sianz.....
Joyce Kho Ming Zhen ♥
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Wednesday, May 24, 2006
MC againz!!
[MC againz...2 days u noe?]Yo everyone... Ya, judging by i can blog so early, u will noe i didnt go work today... In fact i feel so stupid la! u noe i did go work today cos i felt better than yesterday, as i dun have fever le....So when my sup asked me to go work at nine thirty today and whether i felt better, i said i felt better and ya, i will like to work today. i mean, of cos i want la! if not i take mc its again no pay leave leh...but when i left the hse today, i suddenly felt dizzy...muz be the effect of my medicine...then hor, when i reached there and starting to look after the children, my ear suddenly become blocked(so i cant hear properly) and i started to feel dizzy...and my reaction is very slow...like the children asked me something, or when this child hit that child, usually i will be very alert cos looking after the younger chn muz be alert, if not accident might happened lor... so being alert and quick reaction is one of our responsibility..So when my colleague saw me looking so dazed and according to her, she said when i walk, i look like i am floating kind, i told her honestly that i felt weird...with my ear blocked and dizziness...and that actuali my mc covers for 2 dayz, just that i tot i am feeling better today so i went...and she is so nice la! she immediately tell me to go home cos if not later i have fever again even worse, cos tmr the chn are going west coast for an outing...and they needed more help tmr, so if i fall very sick again, it will be worse if i cant go tmr....Haiz, she is so nice la, but the only thing i felt stupid is that i wasted my money to go to the centre today, and came back....i m oredi so broke, and still wasted the money...ugh! my card is dear top up for me de, if it finishes before my next pay, gosh, i duno what to do lor! Right now, i m feeling better, definitely, but the thing is instead of feeling fresh when i just woke up, i felt as if inside my body is on fire...n i am worried cos i dun want to miss work le...i tot i am feeling worse...cos my breath is reli hot compared to my body...but still...i dun wan to have fever again!! i need the cash u noe, and i have counted le, if i didnt take anymore mcs from tmr to end of the month, the days i will be getting my pay will be only 10 dayz! sianz!Hope tmr i feel better, and oso hope marco will feel better too...poor boy from my playgrp class fell and fractured his arm, and his parents said needed 2 surgeries to push back the bone that is jutting out....gosh! imagine the pain! but my brave boy here did not even cry when he fractured his arm....just hope he can take the surgeries too...cos one is to put in metal piece and the other surgery to take it out...imagine the pain! so hope he is fine too....So ya, hope tmr i am ok and can go to west coast with them, but i think gotta call my sup early morning to ask what time is my work tmr...cos tmr they are going outing at nine, and my shift only start at ten...hmm..shd call huh? Gee, of cos la! think i become stupid le. Ask stupid qns.
Joyce Kho Ming Zhen ♥
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Tuesday, May 23, 2006
Feel so bad la
[Feel so bad la!]Yoz...Hai....Can u imagine? i didnt go to work today again...Gosh...I feel so bad la, like that definitely leave bad impression on my sup de...somemore she is so nice abt the whole thing....made me feel even worse...haiz...yesterday i mentioned that i definitely want to go work today cos last week oredi one day no pay leave le, and i oni started by abt a week i oredi took so much mc...though its not what i wanted, my body reli cant function today....so i didnt go...i tink its cos of the med which makes me drowsy, and oso my body aches and flu...So this morning i was in such a dilemma, cos if i dun go, will leave bad impression (cos my prev job i fell sick and my boss thought i am not up to the job), but if i went today, i scared it will be worsened cos i reli felt my body reli need a rest, thats why i fall sick easily...U will ask me how come my body need a rest? well, its cos i haven been sleeping well for a loong time. i tink i am having abit of insomnia, cos for a long time (dun even rem when it started), i haven been sleeping very soundly, and i have problems falling asleep, meaning i can go to bed at eleven, and fall asleep like say, two plus to three.... and i didnt reli sleep deep...cos i rem last time when i was asleep, i cant even hear anything even when there are commotions, and rite now, when i am asleep, sometimes even when there are no noise, i will suddenly open my eyes and wake up awhile, and then sleep again....I duno whether it has to do with i keep sleeping late and lack of exercise...cos the last time i rem that i am a sound sleeper, was when i am in sec sch, then i started not being able to sleep soundly when i go JI and Ngee Ann, n during JI wasnt so bad, but when i was in Ngee Ann and gotta slp late cos rushing proj, plus no longer exercising, all these light sleeping begin to start. This is real bad cos it not only affect my health, but oso my eyes are getting droopy with eye bags and dark eye rings...So the only thing that make me happy is i got to sleep very soundly...long time no like that le, its like the past again, cos i immediately fall asleep (due to the med..which can cause drowsiness)..and oso slept very soundly without waking up much....Can u imagine my joy? haha.....Actuali last time medicine's side effect of drowsiness doesnt affect me, weird thing is now it affects me lor...and i think its cos i reli need the rest thats why its making me drowsy...but kind of weird...That is the only good thing that came out of me not going out to work, cos i reli rest well....so i can recharge and go to work....juz scared that once i recovered and stop taking the med, i will return to my light sleeping again...i reli dun want that cos if i dun sleep well, i will fall sick again soon....haiz, which is the least of what i wanted cos i reli dun wan my sup to dislike me or sack me....sianz...Muz drink more water, which is another reason i fall sick easily as when i am busy i wont drink water de...but sleep wise, is a prob sia....drinking water i can remind myself...sleep i duno le...Oh ya, another ting that happened...was to my maid la....poor her u noe, she just received a call from her husband or someone in her family that her husband married another woman! she was crying so much, but she told me she doesnt feel heartbroken that her husband is unfaithful, just that she is thinking abt whether the woman takes good care of her daughter anot, since that woman oredi has another child....Gosh, can u imagine? i mean its not like my maid is very faithful to her husband la, but hor, that kind of news is still shocking, so ya, she is going to go back home in june le, thing is, i will miss her cos she is actuali quite nice, like buy me things to eat that kind of thing...haiz..Right now, just hope everything goes well for her, and that i recover tmr, cos i want to go West Coast park with the children on thurs! hee
Joyce Kho Ming Zhen ♥
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Monday, May 22, 2006
Gosh..sick again??
[Gosh....sick again?]Hey u all, its me againz...Guess what? i am sick again... can u imagine? i mean like, this yr i have been falling sick easily...and the same old symptoms somemore u noe? Like, sore throat which is, in my case, throat infection, and feverish, which actuali is slight fever in my case, cough and flu, due to my synus. Whats new? And all these are according to the doctor, so, i can even memorised what he said. So ya i went to doc, and he gave me 2 days mc u noe? Stupid la, i dun want to take mc now leh, no pay leave u noe? and 2 days somemore, sadded leh, plus i just started work at ntuc, sup so nice, how can i do that to her? Moreover, last wk i oredi took a day's no pay leave, cos i oredi started not feeling well le lor...Then, i received some pretty bad news today. Ok lah, not the kind of bad news that i will die from, but enuf to make me worry...first, is the b****y starhub la! Actuali its more of my fault cos i spent all of my last pay till i no money to pay the bill....but hor! reli leh, starhub so rich, cannot let me owe somemore meh? They sent sms telling me i gotta pay within 3 days time, if not they cut off my line! Gosh! its not like i owe 3 months or something....gosh....so rich cannot let me owe somemore, like as if they cant survive if i delay it..mind u i m just delaying it lor....Second bad news...actuali, i oni came across it today, when actuali i shd have known the news on sat. Confusing? well...i went SATA for body checkup and did the scary blood test, urine test, x-ray, and the normal visual checkup and consultation la...(pls note hor, only the blood test is scary) i think i mentioned before that i went...anyway, its for my job de, cos being a childcare teacher muz be medically fit, if not spread all the sickness to children oso not gd ma, ok back to the point, so, i happened to listen to my voicemail today, cos ntuc HR called me, and funny thing is, since it seemed kind of urgent cos they called abt twice, i straightaway thought abt my medical report, cos if i pass they wont call me le la, cant be they call me to chat rite? ok thats not the point, point is, on sat i received a missed call, and i dismissed it as wrong no. u noe la, some idiots call and they let it ring too much lor...so today when i wanted to listen to what the HR called me for as they left a msg, i oso listened to the missed call's voice mail. To my surprise (more like shock), its actuali from SATA. And they told me to go for another round of checkup, cos, my urine test shown my ''duno what'' level is quite high. Mind u, that stupid lady who left the voice mail, duno what the hell she was saying lor, so i duno what level is high, even though i think it sounded like "starch" level. Heck la, now i gotta go back SATA again. Its the third time lor! first time cos i go check up la, second time is cos the first time round i didnt take my urine test as i am having my bloody period. Third time will be this la. So, this cant be a good news lor, but hope its nothing too serious la...if its something to do with starch level, gosh, it might be a risk of me having diabetes. Gosh, choy, choy.... well, i see the doc then see how la...Anyway, hope tmr i feel better, definitely dun want to miss work....cos i will miss Ludovic and Ruiqi! hee...my cuties in my toddler class....
Joyce Kho Ming Zhen ♥
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Sunday, May 21, 2006
hee! change new skin!
[Ta dah!! introducing...my new skin...*dotz*]Heyz....i change my skin...i like this new one even though i cant bear to give up the old one...cos the old one have the snowing effect so i like it so much..cos it reli looks like snowing stars...but...i dun like the layout...cos its so simple and plain...so i getting a little bored with it.this new one is very nice cos firstly, dark backgrd and with purplish design to let ppl enter(mind u, i fell in love with the purple cos purple is my fav color lor)...so nice...secondly, its so fairy tale like! so i like that...and i tink if i ever get sick of this(which i dun think i will la, cos even the prev one i oso not sick of it, just abit bored that the only nice thing is the backgrd) i will change it into my fav disney fairytale couple, aladdin and princess jasmine...haha.Now, back to my life. Currently, i am not in a good mood, cos i am not feeling well. but, i try not to let it show....as in not make a big fuss of it, but i am worried la, cos i am working tmr what...and tmr my shift is from 10 am to 7pm, and though i like waking up late, i duno whether i like this timing. Cos i duno whether i can meet dear anot...haiz...my stupid throat infection la! then with my synus, gosh...its kind of horrible to swallow saliva cos throat pain, then with mucus flowing down, i looked horrifying la...and feel horrible too. Reli hope and pray that i will feel better la, i dun wan to have fever leh....cos u noe la, usually throat infection for me will lead to fever....and i still have some work i havent done lor...but i reli like my workplace...haha. i oredi personally thanked my boss for her help and guidance to show my gratefulness and appreciation. So u noe, what she said? she praised me again, more thoroughly, saying she likes the way i communicate with chn, she likes my interaction with children and the way i teach etc. which makes me so happy la, but of cos i didnt let it get into my head till become arrogant or what, cos i noe for myself i still need lots of improvement, cos i still think i need to work on my interaction with children especially during teaching.Anyway, poor dear is working at toa payoh now. he reli do nothing there lor, duno why the STA so sucky de, insisting that he stays there. Then u noe la, his brother work is providing and doing sound systems for road shows etc de, but for that event which is table tennis matches ah, they reli ignore him lor! then he just sit there and fix up the system, and then the whole day just sit there and rot! Gosh....[sniffing and sneezing] ya la, my flu again...hope my work tmr is ok, first lets just hope i feel better la...
Joyce Kho Ming Zhen ♥
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Thursday, May 18, 2006
so upset with my dad
[Upset with my dad]i duno why i am in such a bad mood today. but i just want my personal space lor! and then my dad, whom usually come back from work and show black face de, was in his one of his more jovial mood. but just because he is in his jovial mood i muz be in la? So he kept asking me things, which according to him is out of concern, and mind u he doesnt do that often, cos as i mentioned earlier nowadays he usually come back with black face, then when he kept telling me and asking me things, i was irritated la! cos i dun feel like talking what! So i am not entitled to having a bad mood la? only he can come back and show black face even when i asked him things out of concern la? i dun understand this double standard lor, just cos he is my father he has the right to gimme attitude when i asked him questions when he is in bad mood, and when it is the other way round, he pushed the door hard and loud and give me even more attitude la? And mind u, i didnt even do anything so rude, like slamming the door or tell him to not disturb me ok? i oni mumbled "emm" maybe abit irritably cos before that he kept saying that i always run away when there is news, kept repeating lor! though its only teasing cos he is smiling, as i mentioned earlier its only one of the rare times cos he usually nowadays come home with a black face de....i was oredi irritated and when he asked me whether i was having sore throat cos i was eating strepsils ma, i just nodded and said slightly irritably "emm", and u noe what he did? slam the door and went out of the room saying "u dun want me to care i dun care la". Actuali earlier when he kept nagging at me to switch off things i oredi not happy, but i dun wan to take it out on him so i even managed to smile tho my mood is damn low...Gosh lor! i didnt even show him as much attitude as he showed me lor...sometimes i reli feel my mum respected me more lor...cos if i said something reli rude still ok la, but i just oni say "emm" irritably lor whereas he can rage and shout like nobody's biz. i so understand hw zhao felt lor, when he needed space last time and i didnt noe so i rage at him, tho now i dun do that le, seriously, sometimes ppl just dun want to be forced to say something when they are in bad mood cos sometimes, there is reli no reason at all! my dad was even more rude in my opinion, cos he slammed my door and said loudly those harsh words, just cos i wasnt smiling at him when he is being nice. if he didnt slam the door and everything, i would have felt bad, like i felt towards my mum at times, rite now, i just feel even more in my bad mood, and upset with my dad lor!
Joyce Kho Ming Zhen ♥
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Wednesday, May 17, 2006
Blissful....
[Blissful.....double bliss in fact]heyZ!! i havent been feeling so blissful for quite some time...its a double bliss!First...me and zhao is going on so well! i m so happy with him and felt so secure and loved by him....hai yo poor dear is now working holiday job at factory with only $5.50 per hr...gosh! And when i met him earlier after my work, his fingers were black due to polishing the mechanics...so poor thing u noe...cos he just stood whole day and doing the same thing...muz be damn boring and kind of tiring! haha...but happy to see him....and he smelled of mechanics as well...looked tired too...but he still managed to crap and make me laugh! hee...cute sia...Secondly, i am happy cos i kind of like my work...as in my boss is reli nice...as i mentioned in my my prev blog how nice she is...u noe she even praised me? she is so generous with her compliments and encouragement u noe....she told me yesterday that she felt i am doing well as a teacher cos she liked the way the children respond to me, which means she likes my interaction with children, and today it happened again! she praised me by telling me i am doing well as a teacher...i felt so pampered, happy yet uncomfortable cos i am wondering whether i deserved such a gd compliment...which i realized i dun feel i deserve it cos i still feel actuali i am quite lousy as a teacher, cos during my 3 yrs of ngee ann during my attachment i have never worked with toddlers before, i think i can still manage to talk to them cos my prev one month work at kidspace i was a playgrp teacher....managed to learn a thing or two from the beautiful and nice and creative Miss Ang... so its not reli i am good but cos i am using miss ang's method....But nonetheless it gave me such great confidence and i felt so encouraged and indebted to my sup, miss sharon, that i am preparing to slog for her....last time i dread work, now i am more enthusiastic abt the things i can do for the children and the centre and even for her...My colleagues are nice ppl oso...they are even willing to help me buy materials and stuff when i needed it...just like miss sharon is so nice, she helped me buy squeeze bottles, cos i told her i duno how to go, but i thought in the end its settled that i buy the bottles..she reli has no airs lo and so helpful lor...cos she is the supervisor leh, she actuali helped me buy materials for my lessons! Gosh my prev workplace, its so unheard of lor....my ex boss will even scold me like hell de....say i shd be independent etc...reli ah, my sup is my idol...haha...she is so nice. reli want to thank her and my colleagues and even though i always say "thank u" but i reli feel its not enuf...hmm....save money and buy something for them for teachers day... i think now my only worry might be my new colleague..who will be my partner for taking toddler, hope she is a nice person...*cross fingers*
Joyce Kho Ming Zhen ♥
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Monday, May 15, 2006
quite nice boss....
[Quite nice boss]Yoz...today was my first day at NTUC childcare...Reli ah, duno whether is it phobia from previous workplace or what...cos today is so good, but even my new supervisor can tell that i am worried sia...she is so nice that she kept telling me not to worry. She even sat down with me and go through with me with the curriculum, so much so that she even told me that she will help me out whenever and wherever she can...So different from my prev boss...who condemn me abt my bad interaction and management with children. She didnt even say a single word, and asked me how was my work and all...even told me if i encounter any problems i can tell her, and she told me its my first day so she understands my concerns....etc. she even say she can do the dough with me when i told her i duno how to....Well, quite ok ah...but its only my first day..hopefully other days are ok as well. i hope to work here for at least 1 yr....
Joyce Kho Ming Zhen ♥
11:25 PM
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Sunday, May 14, 2006
stupid Poseidon
[Stupid Poseidon]Heyz....today's mother's day!! Haha...i gave my mum and my ah ma the prezzies...i tink they kind of like it cos they thanked me and smiled. i gave my mum a nice looking musical bag, note it is bag not box. and zhao gave me an idea of giving my ah ma the preserved papaya...she seemed to like it la...heng lo....we ate outside and went to watch movie...we watched Poseidon. The thing abt Poseidon...Gosh. i always enjoyed watching movie...whether its horror or not....though my favourite kinds are usually magical, fantasy, superhero, romantic, adventure, comedy kind...but, this is one movie that i wont want to watch again. its not that its not nice u noe, cos the effects and everything is so real! the tidal waves that turned the Poseidon ship over, the people that died be it burnt or drowned, and the realistic things that will happen....like near drowning scenes, explosive scenes etc...its so REAL that its scary and haunting....and add it on with like the father who chose to sacrifice himself rather than let his abt to be son in law to die....cos he dun want his daughter to lose her love....such a scene is so familiar (think Armageddon when Bruce willis sacrificed himself for Ben Affleck who was his daughter's abt to be husband) yet so depressingly heartbreaking....Though i shd be happy and admiring the other main actor's survivor instincts and determination to live and applauding that they survived....i felt so depressed after watching the damn movie la! i mean i shd not be so negative and keep thinking abt the sad part....but reli lor....cant help it....i shd be thinking that hey MOST of them made it to the end..instead i was upset at the fact that the whole cruise only five survivors....its worse than titanic i tink...and most of them died not of freezing to death (which in my opinion is better option to die) they died of drowning in trapped spaces...gosh....or electrified, or burnt...eek.Well, its only a movie....but it reli makes me think twice abt taking a cruise next time, cos the tidal waves are reli unexpected...gosh.Anyway, it juz affected abit of my mood thats all, cos i have other things to worry abt, like my work tmr. i mean, i think i developed a phobia oredi....ever since my previous boss....cos now i am worried abt my interaction and management of the children...and oso the boss and colleagues and parents....reli have phobia....hope tmr is going to be a good day instead of monday blues...=X
Joyce Kho Ming Zhen ♥
5:52 PM
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haiz...
[Prezzies? and new job?]Now my mood not so bad le. Me n him considered ok le. I also no mood to bother le...as in like i have other things to think abt... like for instance, whether my ah ma will like my mother's day prezzie for her, whether my mum will like mine...and oso abt my job on mon....Well, the prezzie i bought for ah ma is a suggestion from zhao de....preserved papaya...i was hoping it wun look to han suan. but hmmm....i agree with him that other than this, i duno what else to get for her...cos its either to ex or its not practical...So....anyway, i am worried, reli worried abt my job on mon....cos if i dun like it...thats it lor, its like there muz be something wrong with me...or reli down on my luck...n recently i am down on my luck...like my maid threw away my contacts that i wore oni once...thats not the point. the point is, mon i will start work at ntuc childcare and i am wondering abt what my ex boss said abt me...her words reli eat into me u noe.... i reli lost all confidence...my mind is so full of what ifs...like what if maybe the boss is encouraging, but i have horrible parents? or horrible chn? or backstabbing conniving colleagues?? haiz....i noe i m thinking too much and i cant be expecting everyone and everything to go on smoothly, but i reli hope whatever i am going to deal with is not so dreadful that i reli completely dun want to teach or dread to go work le....cos i dun like to be a quitter and a weakling u see....haiz....just pray at least things go on well and i have no trouble connecting with the toddlers that i am going to take.....cos they need time to get use to me and i hope they will like me....and my boss n colleagues are nice enuf n understanding enuf to noe its my first day so its natural the toddlers wun like me at first...cos i am a new face....hope la....haha...tmr is mother's day. Hope my mum likes my prezzie too...
Joyce Kho Ming Zhen ♥
1:30 AM
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Saturday, May 13, 2006
Bloody bad mood
[Bloody bad mood]i am in a bloody bad mood today. So pissed off that i feel like screaming. I am trying to curb it so that when i meet him i wont be the one who start a quarrel or something. P.I.S.S.E.D.O.F.F. ugh.
Joyce Kho Ming Zhen ♥
1:19 PM
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Friday, May 12, 2006
seventh entry
yoz... recently didnt blog as i was being very lazy... Today is a bad day cos i woke up feeling so tired and aching all over! Gosh...neck ache, cramps due to menstrual...and even quarreled with him...something i dun wish to talk abt at the moment..Well, the camp was quite a good experience cos i got to know his frenz better. Like Mike for instance, he was from my sec sch, and i saw him a few times before, but it was through this camp that i know him better, n he is reli a Mr. Nice Guy. He took care of me n the rest of them..cos there were 6 of us, me, zhao, andre, gene(andre's gf), jonathon and mike himself. So Mike reli took care of all of us by always cycling the last, and i was reli thankful to him cos during the day when we were supposed to cycle back, my inner thighs were so painful, that i was cycling so slowly, n since he did not want me to be the last so he just stayed with me...Gosh, he didnt even complain that i was so slow...i reli didnt know whats wrong with me cos my inner thighs at the seat there was so in pain...He also took care of Gene when she was the last...when she was slow due to her bike...N actuali not only Mike is so nice, Andre also...cant believe that instead of saying i m slow and complaining and losing patience, he actuali encouraged me up slope..haha...gosh i m never going to wear the bloody pink slippers again, so slippery till while i was pedalling my feet can slip off my pedals..n i am oredi a bad cyclist...so imagine how slow i was la...with my inner thigh muscles aching and slippers slipping...Gene is also very nice as she will always make sure to tell us what she knew was dangerous, like asking us be careful on the sand cos she read abt people throwing used syringes on the sand...Gosh, irresponsible people sia...Anyway, the photos of the camp i will upload as soon as zhao sent me. Cos i dun see Mike online. Oh ya....duno whether its good news or bad news, but i got a job...not from Mrs. Lau...cos she wanted Christian teachers as she had bad experience...haiz..cant get a job at kindergarten..wish i can cos the hrs are so short with so many holidays! Too bad i cant and so i got a job at NTUC childcare cos they are the only childcare whereby the teachers dun need to plan lesson plans..its not that i mind doing lesson plans, but seriously considering the hrs at childcare is 9 hrs, i go home not only have to plan lessons but make materials for lessons, notice boards and do newsletters, decorate all the different learning corners....gosh, its even worse than when i was studying...cos when i go home dun even have time to relax...so that is why NTUC still seemed not so bad..i went to medical examination yesterday, gosh, the blood test is painful and i felt nauseous and faint after that...As in the pain is not so great till i teared or what la...but just painful n sore lo...Gosh, my cramps are getting severe...with my neck ache...reli down on my luck today...
Joyce Kho Ming Zhen ♥
1:56 PM
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Friday, May 05, 2006
Sixth entry-on the same day as fifth entry
Yoz...Went Giant earlier with dear and jonathon....shopping for things for our camp this sat...Here are the things i will be doing in the next few days:-2 interviews: tmr morning and afternoon-then going to shop for present for a farewell gift to a friend leaving for australia-shopping for dear's prezzie...gosh...i almost forgot his birthday...cos i am kinda broke le...keep mobbing abt my financial stats and mother's day prezzie for mummy & ah ma...-then tmr evening meeting dear's family for dinner at some restaurant? i duno...muz make reservations, his sis invited me cos she wanted to throw the dinner for dear's mum as it's mother's day next week.-Then pack things after that for camp.-Sat: camp till sunday. Things muz rem to pack: 1 set of clothes, towel, toothbrush, shampoo, bath foam, fork and spoon, torchlight....hmm, what else?Quite busy huh? I also never expect it. Oh well, good cos can spend time with him and his frenz...Glad that Gin is going...can u imagine if she didnt go, i m the only girl there and the only couple? I almost also decided not to go...cos at first i tot all couples going>Kevin & Fion, Gin & Andre, plus me & zhao. Then now kevin is not going, so of cos fion is not going, and then first Gin said she duno whether she can come for the camp cos of some holiday reason, but now confirmed can le, phew lor...cos at least when i go toilet bath or what i have a companion...Hee..somemore she always seem so at ease and comfortable with ppl, makes me more relax as a girl too...haha=) i think dear convinced her to go oso..haha. Oh well, its late...gotta slpzz...so tired...yawnz
Joyce Kho Ming Zhen ♥
12:27 AM
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Thursday, May 04, 2006
Fifth entry
Heyz...it's me againz....So happy yesterday and today! Haha. Let's start with yesterday. I was happy due to my game on maple. At first i was not feeling very happy cos the hino fan i bought using dear's mesos, i bought the wrong one...the stats was lower...i was sad as i felt i wasted his mesos u see...then after that worse thing was when i scrolled it using 60% in hope of making the attack stats higher, very suay, i failed lor! N it cost quite alot too! haiz...then dear helped me. He insisted on buying 10% scrolls, when i told him i dun wish to take the risk cos if 60% never kena, 10% is even lesser chance lor! i told him i rather scroll all with 100%, though it will make my weapon worthless la...but he still dun care and helped me. U noe what happened? He got it! The second scroll worked like a charm! so imagine my joy cos firstly, its already very hard to kena successfully, and secondly, the 10% scroll added more stats than 60%! Gosh, i was hopping mad with happiness. Haha...Today...why am i happy? i just return from Goldwell, whereby i had free hair dye and highlights. It's not the first time i have been there u see, so i trust them as they are professionals dyeing for u for free....the only minus point is u cant choose the color u want... for me thats ok cos sometimes i wont know what kind of colors suit me u see, and the result is usually good cos the professional hairstylists they can design ur image and their choices are usually better...something like makeover. However, what gave me a pleasant surprise was Eddie, the hairstylist/hair technician. As i went before a few times, i met him a few times before too. The last experience i had with him was not a pleasant one cos that time, it was another hairstylist from London who made my hair, and Eddie harshly told me i shd not put too much wax on my hair. Its like i duno him, then suddenly he came to me and give me that kind of look and said that. Then he walked away. Then he commented on the 'tail' hair that i have at the back of my hair. He asked me whether i was naughty. Though i knew it was jokingly, the way he said it wasnt friendly. So imagine today, when i saw that my hair technician is going to be him, how dreadful i felt. Here comes the surprise: he was not only nice to me, he sort of redesign my image by telling me he felt that i looked better without parting. N due to the nature of my hair, cos it's coarse n all' not like hui's so soft, he told me if i purposely make it look flat it will look fake. That was one the time i started liking him, cos he did not try to change the nature of my hair, like so many hairstylist do cos' they ask me to rebond, he tried to bring out the best of it. So he kinda of remind me of my own hairstylist at west mall Jantzen, Adrian. The best part is, usually when i dyed my hair at Goldwell, the hairstylist dun bother to do follow up de, i mean which hairstylist do? After they do ur hair, u just go and its none of their biz oredi. He told me to call him n tell him my hair condition in a weeks' time, cos he said he want to know whether the color drop off (cos its violet dye, reddish pink highlights), as the color red drops off easily, and esp in my case as i bleached my hair before. Then in two weeks time i can go back n he can touch up for me. i was like wow! Furthermore, he also told me he has hair spa treatment sessions and invited me to come so he can treat my hair, cos i complained my hair is soo dry. Gosh, he is the first hairstylist who actuali dun mind doing xtra work...foc! N he is fun to joke ard with too...always tell me to go out n party as i am young when i told him i dun party much. haha... So my hair looks like this now...
Haiz...now come to the sad part...Mrs. Lau from the kindergarten never called me...so i guess i gotta go NTUC find le.....Sadded..reli tot i can work for mrs. lau. She seems so nice.
Joyce Kho Ming Zhen ♥
1:47 PM
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Monday, May 01, 2006
Fourth entry
Yoz...It's me again..So happy to see Minghui tagging my blog...=D Hui, pls rem to gimme ur blog add ok? Talking abt Hui, i wanted to upload me and hui's photo, me and mel's photo, me and lina's photo,me n jes's photo...but gosh! i duno how cos' rite now no space....perhaps gotta figure out a way somehow...Today, i went to tuition first...then after that i met up with mel n lina! So happy to see them after so long...they so nice la, accompany me to eat as pasta mania(againz) haha even though they ate le...and guess what i ordered?? Al funghi again.. hee. we met at bugis to shop for jes's birthday present...Hee! Guess what we got her? *grinz* at first we wanted to give her something unique n special. Since we are sharing the present, we discussed that we wanted to get her something she dun have. so hmm, earrings, necklace, and bracelets are definitely out cos she has too much that she can go set up a shop le... so then we went to consex shop in hope of getting her something to spice up her sex life with her husband..& i was reli worried at first cos the shop oni allows ppl who are above 23 to go in...gosh, imagine getting kicked out of the shop, damn embarrassing lor! then we saw all kinds of vibrators...we decided against it cos reli la, what if her sensitive husband dun like it then how? As in like if we give her a vibrator, wait her husband think we feel he cannot satisfy her that sort of thing, its very hard to say how sensitive he is. Then we thought maybe condom, in which we felt its soo unoriginal. As in sooo sec sch stunt. we decided to go out of the shop cos though ah du is also chipping in for the present, the sex toys that we wanted to get for her is too out of our budget...like 59 bucks, gosh. We kept walking and shopping at the same time la...sort of like digressing cos after like 2-3 hrs then we went to shop for her present again...but i am so happy cos i found my bronze bag!! its just not any bronze bag, but in the design i want...cos ever since i saw one in the pasa malam, i fell in love with it but too ex so i din get it, then after so many months of searching, i saw it again! haha...naturally i bought it lor...oh ya..back to what we bought her. We went to seiyu after we digressed n shopped for ourselves, haha. We got her a black, sexy, see through, with hot pink laces nightie with sexy undie. Hope she likes it..haha. After all, we took abt another two hrs deciding which one to get.....So imagine we walked for duno how many hrs...my feet reli hurt like hell....n on the train back, unlucky me, no seat lor. Gotta stand all the way, my feet felt as though i m standing on hard rocky stones. Even though we ate at yoshinoya and did sit down to relax our feet before that, but my feet still hurt...guess cos i loong time never go shopping le...tmr is another day! Reli hope Mrs.Lau will call me regarding the job at her kindergarten...though i hope to work for her, i duno whether she is as nice as Faith said she is...as in i talked to her before n she is nice, but i m worried whether she will be a very supportive boss, cos she seems to be keep finding ppl...but well, stil hope she will hire me. if not i hope ntuc faster give me job offer...
Joyce Kho Ming Zhen ♥
10:55 PM
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