Tuesday, July 25, 2006
[a break from work...]
[mc again....a break from work]Hey....to anyone who has been reading my blog...Can u believe it? i took mc again today....gosh. Went to the polyclinic to get the mc. Oredi so broke still take mc and waited like 2 hrs. Haiz. i tink my sup is reli unhappy with me....cos throughout the 3mth probation, this is like, the 7th no pay leave i took...adding on to it will be next fri, on my birthday.....hope my sup dun kill me...Well, anyway, heard the curriculum specialist is coming down next wk to check whether we have everything...so i am doing my language corner now. Tmr go back to centre still have to revamp my notice board....by changing the glittery borders to something else...Sianz....Hmm, mandy is getting supervised this thurs...Good luck to her....Life's weird. i still rem how i felt when i was being supervised last yr by my field sup during my last yr of attachment. Reli scared and worried, like how mandy is feeling rite now. Now that i have joined the work force and that after i have been thru it, i realized that usually the field sup will try to pass u....unless u kena the lecturer....*er-hem, no names mentioned, but we noe who she is* at least the whole ECH students noe...Oh wellz. Talking abt sch. i have oredi submitted the applications cum essay to Wheelock College. So i think i am starting sch soon...in aug? i duno. Sept? Haiz. i have to work and study at the same time. Will be so busy....duno whether i can cope anot. my time mgt pretty bad....See how la. Good thing to look forward this Sat is, i am going to Settlers' Cafe with dear n the gang...i tink the whole gang is coming la...i m not sure. but i noe gene n andre are coming....good lo. i have made a new close fren i tink...who is none other than Gene....she is reli nice n u noe, like me in a certain way...or maybe i m like her...haha. But thing is, i feel comfortable talking to her....like old frenz like that.... she is a very real person, as i mentioned before....not fake fake kind...So it's easy to talk to her as she is real and friendly...glad to noe her....Well....next wk my pay day...yay! haha...and oso my birthday. 21st.....i cant believe i am going to be a 21-year-old soon. u noe when i was in sec sch, i would think abt whether i will get my freedom when i am 21...meaning u noe, can go out and stay overnight with frenz and stuff...cos then my parents were strict with me....then after that i would stop myself from thinking this cos i felt that it's sooo long and soo many yrs before i reach 21....let's see, abt 5-6 yrs? Haha, time reli flies....n u noe wat? i dun feel that i m 21....cos i tot when i am 21, i shd be feeling more....mature? confident? or adult? but somehow.....i felt the same abt myself as i felt when i was in say...sec 2? nothing seemed to change much in terms of my feelings.... And i used to think, i wun be frenz with andre when i was in sec 2. i still rem then that when i tot maybe 5 yrs later we can talk to each other? And then....i told myself, dun be so wishful thinking. As in, not that i m dying to be andre's fren, but he is my dear's best fren u noe? so it will be better if we dun hate each other...So can u imagine i am actuali talking to him now? i mean, i m not so close to him till i will call him every nite la...but at least we talk....haha. Well, it's strange how life work things out....i gtg do my language board....byez.
Joyce Kho Ming Zhen ♥
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Sunday, July 23, 2006
Owe so many things....
[Owing so many things....ugh! So sianz....]Hey to u ppl out there..... So long haven been blogging... but since i am stuck in front of my labbie to do the bloody essay for Wheelock College application, might as well come in and update. And in case if u are wondering is it the same essay i was talking abt a few wks before, u are rite! Haha, lazy me rite? Been too lazy to reli get started...so now when i am reli getting started, as the deadline is like almost over, i might as well face it, and start doing it...if not i can kiss my application to wheelock goodbye. Haiz....been feeling so tired and down lately. Cos i owe alot of ppl tings. First, it's the essay la, of cos. Then, it's the revamping of my notice board....rem when i mentioned in my prev entry it's too glittery? i heard some principal from another branch is coming down. Hope not Ngee Ann NTUC childcare's principal. Why? Cos she is reli, reli....b***hy..... that time when i was attending the course with teacher lay hoon, she was staring at us just cos we are talking. Reli staring lor. Not looking oni. And then there's the incident with the open hse. Ugh. i dun wan to even talk abt it. Back to what i owe, there is oso the Educare Express....a newsletter for parents abt what i have done....it's fortnightly basis...and reli, it's oredi two weeks since term start. Then, there is the practical life skills learning corner. Ugh. Well....enuf of what i have owed.....i mentioned that i watched the Pirates of the Caribbean: Dead man's chest? Gosh! It's reli nice movie but.....my fav actor Johnny Depp aka. Captain Jack Sparrow died at the end u noe? Fighting the bloody giant octopus....hate it! Was feeling kind of down when i see him go inside its mouth with a sword....Cos it defintely means he died la....I think i am mad lo....it's oni a show...but i reli felt so sad u noe? Though i am quite sure he will be alive in the third movie cos Johnny Depp is currently shooting the third one...bloody hell duno which mag says the third one oredi done....not yet lor! oni halfway done....So well, if he is acting in the third one, definitely not dead. After all, even Captain Barbossa is alive at the end of this movie...if they can bring the villain from the first movie back, they shd be bringing the much loved Captain Jack back, cos it's reli so much less colourful without him.Oh well...enuf said....hmm...u noe i went to the zoo with my kids last fri? it was actually more tiring than fun...didnt reli take alot of photos, cos all the children are like misbehaving, and we have to carry so many things! Can u imagine? i hold one child's hand while carrying two big plastic bags, whereby one is actuali containing three bottles of 1.5litres of water? thats abt 4.5 litres, and another big plastic bag which i hav no idea what's inside. I tell u, when u go to zoo, never carry so many things. Cos, in the end, u are not oni tired and aching from all the pain, u cant even enjoy the trip properly and walk far. Moreover, with so many children, and mind u, they are so young lor! To them, seeing animals make them very hyper. So u can imagine all the teachers' tiredness.....Too lazy to upload the pics from zoo trip....another time....now, i gotta go eat dinner, then do my essay. Ya. So....goodbye ppl...
Joyce Kho Ming Zhen ♥
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Friday, July 14, 2006
ups and downs..
[Ups and downs....]Heyz.....Well....today is a day full of ups and downs....Well....for the downs.....i tink it's juz abt my notice board....i mean, i reli like the borders....cos as u ppl noe i like glittery, shiny and sparkly things....esp when it's against black blackgrd...after all, even tho my fav color is purple, black is kind of like my second fav....oh well, back to the point. But, as i noe i like glittery things, i noe some ppl wun like it...will find it too flashy. Which is why even after i put up the design, i was worried that it's too....flashy. i still rem when i was still schooling, my proj mates will oways reject my ideas on deco cos i oways want it with stars, or glitters, or both=X. So....i am not surprised when my colleagues told me it's too flashy, etc. And i respect their ideas and opinions....cos different ppl has different opinions. Well, the down part is not so much abt them telling me the truth abt why they feel my notice board is not appropriate enuf, after all, it's better than they juz say it behind my back and i dun learn anything abt decos on notice boards....so i appreciate Ash's and the rest of the colleague's honesty....if not i will have no idea and might do it again next time at other places...& i appreciate the fact that they try to tell me in a way so as not to hurt my feelings....But...of cos i will still feel hurt....in a sense of money and effort and time waste...i mean who wun rite? Plus, i m oredi so broke, yet i spent so much money on the deco stuff and papers....i dun even noe can claim anot....Yet, i noe it's better to change...esp when my sup dun seem happy abt it....So....i reach the decision of removing it....but not now....cos firstly, i still want to look at it awhile more, after all, if i remove it now, it will be blank for awhile, as i dun want to anyhow put up a "temp" board....secondly, it's cos, i want to think of another idea of decorating my board. Taking Ash's and my sup's suggestions on account....Like, make it more "homely" kind? Pastels and all? The truth is, i oso dun wan to juz anyhow paste pastel colored construction paper and use construction paper to juz deco the borders, it's kind of plain....and boring. u noe, the board is oredi at a hideous place....i dun want it to look even more hideous till nobody will look at the board....So, i need to tink of a design which is 1) simple, 2) attractive, 3) outstanding(so that ppl noe a notice board exist in the room) yet not too shiny, glittery or flashy, 4) cosy and homely. So..i am still thinking....oredi got an idea...but still feel its not gd enuf....maybe think again for better ones.Well, for the happy thing....i m going to watch Pirates of the Caribbean tmr! with dear and the gang....actuali, i m such a huge fan of the movie, as it's my fav movie of all time, with my fav actor, Johnny Depp, i dun care who i am gonna watch it with....as long as i m watching it.....Plus, i met dear today.....and....my dad told me something reli sweet....haiz. He said for my 21st birthday, tho he wun be organising any party for me(which is fine by me, cos i find it so tiring and bothersome to invite ppl la, organise buffet or whatsoever....), he will buy me a necklace...worth abt 200 bucks. Which is like....wow? So expensive! n not oni that, he rarely buy birthday gifts for me....even buy things for me oso quite rare la....tho have...so, i m oredi touched he finds my 21st birthday impt enuf to give something...i dun mind the price...i wanted to tell him no need so ex de, after all, it's the thought that counts ma....But then, i decided to embask in his love n gift, cos like i said, he dun gimme presents often....like once in a blue blue blue moon....Oh wellz...tmr....me n dear n the gang are going to watch midnight show....good....hee...at west mall....and i am looking forward to it...and ya, i've got beads making course tmr....cool...That's all i gotta blog for today....
Joyce Kho Ming Zhen ♥
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Sunday, July 09, 2006
Many things to be happy abt....
[Many things to be happy abt.....]Heyz.....Firstly.....dear is back from thai....yay! haha...so i met him juz now after my tuition.....so happy. He bought for me a few things....a "red bull" t-shirt, which he oso bought for the rest of the gang(andre, gene, kevin & fion)....haha! i laughed my head off imagining what it will be like when all of us wear it out on an outing.....kind of like a uniform or something....Dear oso bought me two inhalers....the kind for flu kind? as u ppl noe...i have synus...so it's very common for me to have rudolph nose, as dear oways call it....so yup! he bought me the inhalers so that i can use when i m having my synus again.....which is reli sweet of him....Dear oso bought me a necklace and a pair of earrings which is inside this reli pretty box...which look like this....the box....
and the necklace and the pair of earrings! all crown design....hee...
and dear oso bought me a buddha statue that is to be worn ard the neck....
Sweet of him rite? By rite there shd be a powerful relic....poor dear lost it....so it's ok la....anyway, i was so happy to see him, i oso showed him my new cam....i noe he wanted one too...maybe i can save up n give him on a special occasion? cos this cam is a good buy....oh well, i was so happy that i took a photo with him....n i reckon it looks reli nice....
What do u think? Hee.....Well, that's the first thing to be happy abt....eh...second thing is....my fav couple are back together! haha...i mean andre n gene la... i m so glad when i saw them together u noe? coming over to dear's hse...looking every bit as blissful as me n dear....as i said before i find Gene very compaitable with Andre....cos she is reli a cool person...nice yet real n with the girl power attitude...in fact i can talk to her very well...we are kind of alike....hee.So ya, i am happy for them....hope they will last....Well, that's all for the happy things.....nw for the sian thing....actuali, i never tot i will feel unhappy abt not getting to watch the world cup final. But i didnt noe i was so into it. i tink it's cos i watch the match between Germany n Portugal. i felt it's reli a gd match....not boring at all....it didnt hurt that Cristiano Ronaldo is soooo good looking....better than Beckham...hee. But seriously, the match is reli gd....exciting to watch as i saw how the "gorilla" goal keeper from Germany blocked the balls from Portugal a few times....and how Portugal unintentionally helped Germany scored a goal! Gosh...i tink if i m that player i will kill myself. i mean, they are oredi losing by like, one point or two...i cant rem...then when the Germany was given a chance for penalty kick or something, one of the Portugal player hit the ball.....n helped Germany scored another goal! By rite....if he haven intervened.....Germany wun have scored that goal....Oh wellz....it's reli quite exciting....but i guess since i m not a die hard fan, i juz have to live with the fact that i have work tmr so i shd not stay up n watch.....i mean my shift is 730 in the morning...tink i can die if i watch....Oh well....since i have no fav team.....i dun mind if either party won.....but i tink France will win....oh...i reli duno....it will be reli exciting....even tho i duno much abt soccer....i noe enuf to noe that it's the world's best mid field player's last time in world cup...i m talking abt Zidane.....i m sure he will throw a terrific match.....Wellz....i guess i juz hav to ask abt the score tmr....envy gene...she no work tmr.....Nitez ppl....
Joyce Kho Ming Zhen ♥
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Saturday, July 08, 2006
[Yay....got my digi cam! one wish down!]
[Yay...one wish down....cos i got my digi cam! Thanks to Hui...n i still miss him la!]Hey.....to u ppl who are reading my blog....i miss dear so much la....tho he is coming back tmr.....but still miss him. Didnt realise he actuali left an offline msg on msn for me before he left....so sweet la...i was so touched that i teared a little....haha....so emotional. muz be my period.Well....so that kind of makes me happy, esp when he sms me oso n told me he bought things for me...u noe i love surprises....n i heard that his mum is angry with him cos he lost a powerful relic that apparently his mum gotten for me from temples....i tink so la....so sweet of him n his mum....But i m very happy oso cos.....i finally gotten my digi cam! it's so light, small, n beautiful, n clear, n cheap! Thanks to Hui.....Reli...i gotten my Sony cybershot w30 for like 395 bucks? thats cheap....n its no lousy brandless camera....it's Sony with 6 megapixels....good lo. Reli glad that i trust Hui(duh!she my best fren...besides Qi, dun trust her trust who?) but reli....cos then i got a gd deal rather than signing up with courts in monthly instalments....i mean it's so much cheaper.....So here is a photo i took with Hui once i got my camera.....
Clear anot? haha....n i like the color of my digi cam cos it's not the normal silver de....i refuse to get the silver one....even black one i oso not reli keen....i mean there is w50 where the screen is larger, so if i wan i gotta pay 40 more bucks....but....besides Hui saying that paying 40 more dollars for slightly bigger screen not worth it, i oso not reli keen cos it's available in 2 colors oni-black n silver. Pardon me for saying this, but it's reli boring colors. i duno why is it this way, that the digi cam are commonly found in silver or black colors.....so i dun wan it....so i reli wanted w30 cos it has 3 colors...white, metallic blue n silver. i told the whole world at first that i want to get the white one....i mean, whoever heard of a white camera? Special lor.....But....somehow when i c it...even tho it's reli pearly white n not yellowy white....but....somehow no feeling....duno why....The metallic blue reli outshines the white one.....so ya. i got the metallic blue one. all shiny n small. Muz reli thank Hui.....Thank u again Hui, if u are reading this.....Hmm....today....besides getting cam...nothing much to say....didnt do much except accompany Hui walk walk....so lucky got her company....if not i die of boredom le.....but she had to go off n meet her boy....which i understand...i mean after all, it's Saturday.....haiz.Oh ya....haven settle my degree thingy yet. waiting for my mum to write the cheque.....then i gotta photocopy my dip tmr.....feel so bad. even tho i am given more time to do my essay...meaning i can just give the copy of application form n a copy of dip cert n deposit first n essay later...somehow haven even start on my essay...better start on it soon.....Lina(from my workplace) gave me some gd ideas abt the essay...but i reli lazy to start.....cos still abit lost....Argh....stop being lazy joyce...... better start on it. Yup. That's all for today....bye.
Joyce Kho Ming Zhen ♥
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Wednesday, July 05, 2006
Feeling very emotional...sad...n tired...
[Feeling so emotional....sad....alone.....& tired....]It's that time of the month again. Ya. Juz rite after i recover from my sickness....i have my period. i duno what's wrong with me. i am feeling sad...cos i am missing someone.....Ya. Him. Abroad. It's not as if he's gone for as long as a yr like Qi. But the sadness of being alone and missing him overwhelms me. i felt it's a bit too much. The 'missing' part i mean. Or perhaps it's cos i didnt get to spend much time with him.u noe what's the irony beside me having my period rite after i recover? i recover on the day he leaves. so ARGH! i mean, i spent my sat seeing doctor, fainting at the jurong east interchange, n sleeping. Ya, he was there during some hrs when i was fainting n sleeping....but nothing more. Sun i saw him...yes. With his family too. so we barely talked. he was busy on the com. So ya. Alone. Sianz. What's worse....was that i am worrying abt my application to my degree program. Whoever had thought enrolling to a degree program need so much hassle? Esp when i am working? u noe i have to not only fill up the bloody form, i had to find 2 referees, which they reli have to fill up everything sealed in an envelope, plus.....an ESSAY! Gosh! i mean....i m so stuck now la. Firstly, cos i am tired. Then, oso cos i duno what to write!! and the deadline is 14th july. which is nex fri. n i hope i didnt rem the date wrongly. Tho at first i wan to send by snail mail...i tink now safer to go down n give it to them. ya. So, i m so stuck now with the essay. N referees.....hmm.....gotta think abt who n whether they are free to fill up...it's a bloody 2 pg full....like force the referees to go for mini test or survey like that....sheesh....Duno what's Wheelock's problem?Gosh. i miss him la. n juz saw his sms. Haha....my silly dear....told me he no have auto roaming, then now can le....i rem every line hav one de....at least for m1 n singtel they will automatically switch international de.....but starhub i duno la....Still feeling down.....but slightly improved. cos of a silly sweet sms.....all the way from Thailand. Reminds me of how sweet n touched i oways felt when Qi called me all the way from Australia....not very regularly, but the fact that she calls...i didnt even call her cos my parents might make noise....but she will call me n update me de. All the way from Australia u noe? i didnt even ask her to do that. juz like i didnt reli ask him to sms me or what since he said he dun have auto roaming.i m very lucky to have people who love me n care for me enuf to do these sweet things for me. it shows they think of me n miss me.....juz like i miss them too. aww.....Love u guys, Qi n dear.
Joyce Kho Ming Zhen ♥
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