Monday, June 12, 2006
Bad and boring day at work!
[Ugh! Bad and boring day at work!]Hey.....to anyone who will be reading or is reading or has been reading my blog....Its a boring and bad day at work today....reli sianz...how come its a bad day? For starters, i think its the lack of teachers. so i was busy like hell...even my break oso not proper...not anyone's fault la....its just not enuf teachers....So kind of tiring...then hor...in the evening got so many chn to take care of...then i didnt even care abt whether i am too fierce or what....i think the stupid hot weather oso contributed to the tiredness in me....Then, what was worse was during the pickup time. Not only was it chaotic, but there was this granny who came to pick up her grandson, she reli break my day....i am not naming names cos not nice...but she came and picked up her grandson as usual. Then hor, she asked the grandson to take his shoes. He doesnt want to. I asked him to take his shoes, he also dun want. Then, the grandma asked me to be fiercer, cos she feels i m not fierce so thats why he doesnt listen to me. i duno what possessed me, i listened to the grandma's advice. u noe what? her grandson cried and became scared of me. which was what i expected. Then, u noe what she said? she told me, ''he dun want to listen to u? u cant control him ah? He listens to hong laoshi when she did that, '', i cant. At that point of time, i was too tired to think abt what she said, so i just told her, ''i noe''. i mean, after all, its the truth that hong laoshi is good with children-firm n yet gentle...But i was unhappy cos there was another parent outside who saw the whole scene. i mean, its very hurtful lor,not only cos in front of another parent but oso cos like hello? u as his grandma oso cant make him listen to u lor?? n i duno what possessed me to do what she said, which is be fierce. i mean, there is another parent from my toddler's class...u noe? and normally i m oni fierce to the older children...cos they do need the discipline, but the younger ones, i try not to be so fierce la...so what will that parent think? Gosh.......Haiz...this sat got work....sianz....Sianz...tmr is early shift...muz slp earlier....its not that i dun like early shift...just sianz lor...gotta wake up so early....hope i can meet him tmr or something....i reli need a break ah....tired like hell....yesterday's dinner was quite good, tho the food is not nice.....but i got to meet up with my cousins and i even got to talk to my handsome cousin...haha....cant believe i used to have a crush on him...cos he is good looking what....but thats so long ago...well, its good cos when i was younger i was close to him de, cos he dotes his female younger cousins ma, since he dun have a younger sis....but it all stopped abruptly when...i oso duno since when? just that i had a crush on him then i dun dare to talk to him...then recent yrs even tho no crush oso didnt get to talk much...esp when his mum passed away...i didnt even noe how to face him...seeing him so sad kind of makes me feel...sad and i duno what, but awkward at times la... So i was happily enjoying talking and joking ard with him when this auntie beside me said in chinese, "oh, u are his niece or aunt?" which was still not too bad....then she said the thing that i have heard so often...."she(refering to me) looks exactly like ur mum u noe?" and at first he didnt catch it, but then she repeated herself and very casually like as if his mum, which is my aunt, was still alive like that! Gosh! people can be so tactless...n u noe, for a moment, the atmosphere turned heavy....when a moment ago was still light hearted... but after that he just softly said, "i noe." N gosh! think she took that as a cue to say somemore, so she said "i noe cos i was ur mum's colleague when your mum is still young, and i tell u she(me again) look exactly like her!" Gosh.....she used the chinese words zhang de yi muo yi yang...i mean i dun mind la...looking like my aunt, i heard it so many times....from my dad....and some relative...is either i look like my first aunt(who oso passed away) or my second aunt(my cousin's mum).... and my dad sum it all...said i looked like my second aunt but my actions are like my first aunt....personally, i dun feel i look like them. Cos my second aunt(my good looking cousin's mum) was very pretty when she was young...saw her photos...well, given that my good looking cousin looked like her, she was definitely good looking de....so ya. my first aunt...well, the photo of her was so long ago, n i never seen her before, but i just feel dun look like. ya....enuf of that...back to the point. Point is, my cousin just came back from Europe...so envious of him la....so we talked abt the places he went to...envy de yaosi... haha. He is very nice as he wanted to show me the photos...anyway, reli nice chatting to him....and cos of that, we sort of like became closer like siblings? so i was like, feeling a little doted upon by him just like when we were young and xinfu...he was once again my brother who takes care of me....didnt realise how much i miss those days till he was very nice to me like a brother would....e.g. following me to toilet and waiting for me without me asking or anything...he noe i m worried of getting lost...haha! i think the last time he did this was when i was.....still in pri sch? haha.....Good bonding...wish i could take up his offer to stay over u noe? can listen to him talking abt his trip...cos he took 2000 over photos...and i wanted to see! but he cant transfer to me via msn cos it will take very very loooong....n i wun noe what place that is. so....haiz....Tmr is gonna be another loong day....sianz.
Joyce Kho Ming Zhen ♥
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