Sunday, June 11, 2006
Rainy rainy day...
[Rainy day...kind of reflect my feelings for today...but yesterday was good=)]Hey....its me again...Gosh. It's raining heavily today. Reli heavily. Is it trying to reflect my feelings or something? i mean....i m not feeling so down till i want to cry....but just down la...cos today not meeting him. Abit sianz lor...cos i havent been seeing him for awhile le. i mean ya la, i saw him yesterday, but usually sunday i went over his hse for dinner de, today cant cos i m going for the wedding dinner with my dad. Ya, dear said i will definitely eat sharks' fin....well...haiz...i like to drink the soup la....even if its not sharks' fin i oso like..cos that time my mum brought me to the vegetarian restaurant to eat(u noe la, her being a strict vegetarian), i ate the "sharks' fin soup" and it was real nice....ya, so its not cos i like sharks' fin, but more like the soup...Yesterday...was kind of fun tho...cos dear brought me to Settlers'....we went with andre, kevin, mike and jonathon. Gene and Fion didnt come...so i was the only girl and girlfriend along....at first before i met them i tot to myself whether i m extra that kind of thing cos all guys ma...then after we met and i realise i worry too much. i mean, they are all sort of like part of the grp le, its not the first time we have been out...cos andre and kevin are dear's best friends ma...so we have like been out so many times and even to camp together, even tho kevin's not there but mike and jonathon were at the camp...so in short, we noe each other quite well in a sense so there is nothing to be awkward abt la...tho perhaps it will be even more fun if Gene and Fion are there...So anyway, they all took good care of me at the games...we played "a dog's life", "Zombies" and "Acquire". Well....to me, "a dog's life" is the most fun one....tho i m at first not very sure of the game, but the other two are kind of boring, i think cos i didnt reli get the hang of how to play....so ya...but the cool thing is, the guys helped me out alot...they even helped me play when i was feeling lost...cos i tot i m being kind of slow...i mean usually i m oredi abit blur le...add on to yesterday i have work from 8am to 2p.m. and i slept late the day before yesterday, so i got like headache plus retardedness....haha. But the guys are surprisingly patient, tot they will lose their patience or something cos i reli duno how to play...So by rite i shd be very bored yesterday, but i felt that it was still not too bad. Talking abt his friends....actuali, kevin they all i m still not too surprise that i can hang ard with them. Cos they are real nice to me right from the start. But andre is the surprise here ba, he used to dun like me much...i will say the feeling is mutual...i oso dun reli like him...then when i first started hanging ard the grp, everyone is nice to me except him....i mean he is not cruel to me or what, just sort of like ignore me? so i didnt talk to him....very awkward i tell u. i dun even noe how i shd react to him. Cannot be rude, yet i wun be nice either if he doesnt want to. i tot he was arrogant, with lots of attitude, ugly(well, feeling is mutual again), not nice, unfriendly, cold, unapproachable, uncaring, fierce and rudely blunt. in short, i dun like him. in fact, at one point of time, i hate him. Surprisingly, all these change drastically, i juz cant believe i am talking abt the same person. After i noe him, he is: actuali nice, caring in his cool cold way, actuali kind of friendly when u get to noe him cos he actuali jokes ard, fierce oni when he has to, kind of approachable and warmth if he lets u to....and in fact his bluntness is a kind of asset. Better than some of his friends who act nice but actuali dun like me at all, he is that kind of person who is very blunt abt his feelings whereby if he dun like u, means dun like de, no need to guess one, so if he can even joke abt me and tease me, i no need to think he hates me like in the past or wat....weird thing is, i even find him good looking. perhaps he has that kind of bad guy image outside yet nice inside....haha. Well, nice to noe him reli, if not i will have miss a nice guy.Actuali most importantly is that i can get along with his friends..if not very cham lei....every time go out i cant go out with his friends...so glad that we are all ok....well, something andre said was on my mind...but it will be very rude if i ask...we are not that close....when kevin asked him abt Gene, he said "its all over!" then after that he said Gene didnt come cos she cant make it. Weird. At first i tot something is wrong between them, then after that he just said she cant make it. Hope nothing is wrong between them. Cos i reli think they are a good match. She has that kind of attitude and bluntness too....like a female version of him. yet she is oso very nice and caring and has a feminine side too...so ya, very compaitable. she can sort of like tame him...haha. ya, back to my rainy day....ya, so today no action ah....just rot at home lor....maybe can call dear later....oh ya, wonder when can meet hui leh...reli miss her alot...want to catch up with her.... oh ya....i talked to Lina yesterday...not my nana, but lina from my work place...she is reli nice, so happy to see her tag and to noe her better...didnt noe we have so much in common....and didnt realise some ppl who looked so confident on the exterior (from my sec sch) can be so inferior inside....gosh. and mean too. real mean. looks can be deceiving huh? those who look like girls-next-door and sweet looking doesnt mean they are nice. just like andre, who looks tough and full of angst, is not that bad after all. Well, there are all kinds of ppl in this world.
Joyce Kho Ming Zhen ♥
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