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Friday, September 29, 2006
[ReLi......unhappy]

[Shd have been a happy day]

Yo peepz...

Seriously, last few days tink blogger got something wrong. Cos i cant publish the entire blog u noe, so i didnt update my entries la....

Sianz...tmr got work...if not i go dye n trim hair le....cos my mane badly needs a trim...it's getting bushy. Maybe i shd juz sacrifice some time with dear for my mane. After all, y shd i always have time for him? Anyway, tmr, we are going on KTV trip with the gang. Ya. Sometimes, i m reli sick and tired of him keeping things from me....

For example, i am pretty sure he saw her today lor. But did he bother to tell me anything? NO! and i told him that i am meeting Sean lor!

Which reminds me, that i am actuali in gd mood today. Before he gave me attitude la. N its a coincidence he saw her today. I am tired of these guessing games he plays sometimes. i mean, like give attitude then after that ok? Well, like so coincidence, everytime like this?

Whatever la. Anyway, i met Sean today. Qi will be glad to noe he is reli FAT now. haha. Reli. But somehow, i am not surprised, what with watching tv n playing com games, n not going out, gosh...he was, as he put it, muscular before. So without exercise, it makes him FAT. Who ask him to tease Qi abt being fat? I, for one, believed in karmas.

O wellz, glad to noe despite his serious lack of social life, he seemed to be still quite in touch with his usual beng form. As in, tho he havent been out for such a long time, he still have his usual frenz, who are of cos bengs, cos today while we were talking, he waved at them. Doesnt seem like someone who is out of contact with human world. N his attitude n everything is still the same.

I am reli quite surprised tho. Haha, cos i was reli expecting him to...i duno, talk like some old aunties or nerd....cos after all, he is living like that wat...with all those tv drama korean serials he watched serials after serials 24/7 n com games. i mean, even young ppl do go out occasionally on weekends.

O wellz. He was still my nice best guy fren. Chatted, and accompanied me....all the way from 5 plus to near 8, before my tuition. i dun rem how long i haven seen him....but was happy to see him. Seriously, it's not the first time he has done this la. Gd to have this kind of guy fren huh? N we reli chat everything under the sun...i reli mean everything.

Too bad he is not my type. U noe there are some guy friends that u noe so well off that u noe u cant stand them if they are ur bf? Cos u noe their deepest n darkest secrets? Ya, he is that kind of guy fren. i oredi noe his deepest darkest secrets that he wun want his future gf to noe. N, i reli pity that gal... N i even told him that...haha.

Wellz, on the whole, reli enjoyed chatting with him la. Ya. Even told him i am scared of marriage now, so i m not reli looking into it any time soon. Was thinking maybe i shd juz get married at 30 ba? Thats a maybe, like wat my mum said, if havent find the rite one, dun wan to rush.

N seriously, how do u noe whether this guy is the rite one anot?

Well....today oso had teacher's day performance...i tink i danced quite badly cos the chn said its funny n they wanted to see me dance again. Gosh...didnt realize i danced like a clown? But...it's worth it to see them laugh n smile tho, even if it's at my expense la.

Like Mia Thermopolis always say that she is finding self actualization....i am finding mine too...cos i tink i haven got it yet....

Well, thats all for today....gotta work tmr.

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Wednesday, September 27, 2006
[Chg new skin!! haha=)]

[Change my blog skin...again!]

Helloz....

Ya...as u can see, i chg my blogskin againz....Bo liao rite? Was bored with the princess one anyway.... N i have saved this skin in my drive for quite some time, so when i saw it, i was like, hey, this is a nice skin, why i havent use it?

So, ya....here it is....i tink for the time being i wun use the corpse bride one back again in any time soon... n most prob not the princess one ever again...cos reli sianz of it, even tho its nice n all...

Rite now...i shd be sleeping...cos i m working early shift tmr...so i am having flu now, from lack of slp....

i met up with dear juz now. Went over his place, n he did his research while i do my readings...Gosh, now then i realize i got journals to write n it's due on the first day of the start of the module...when i have time i have to update my impt dates....imagine if i didnt read the course guides n assignments paper carefully. i wun have done the journals, cos i tot its juz read oni...ended up actuali muz type u noe...

Quite ok today cos after i ate dinner at his place, as usual his mum cooked for me la, which was reli nice of her, then i watched tv with him, sitting there cosily on the sofa...snuggling together. Which is cool. N we were watching Animal Planet n National Geographic. i tell u, its reli nice cos we watched "The protectors", which shows American's version of SPCA, which shows how they rescue animals that are abandoned or abused. Heartwarming n felt that its reli fulfilling for them cos they gotta save animals u see?

But what we saw next fascinated me. Ya, cos it makes me want to go travel to that place. Cos i watched National Geographic's Specials, n they were showing abt Indonesia's Lake Toba. Which is so fascinating. I mean, the scenery is of cos breathtaking, but its not as breathtaking if u had been to countries with huge mountains n u duno abt the history behind Lake Toba.

Lake Toba, was actuali a huge volcano in the past. Abt 75000 yrs ago. It erupted, and it's called a Super Volcano cos it's reli huge and reli explosive. The last time it erupted, it lasted abt wks, n it actuali covered the whole Earth with Sulphuric acid gas (eh, either that or sulphur duno wat la) but its reli poisonous, n it actuali created another mini ice age on Earth, for ages, according to some scientist abt a millenium, the Earth never saw the sun, as Sunlight could not pass thru the atmosphere of the Earth, with the thick air, n whatever sunlight that manages to pass thru were reflected....

Amazing huh? If u duno what's so amazing, i will tell u. Cos, scientist oni in recent yrs found out that Lake Toba, was actuali a Super Volcano. Before that, everyone tot it was a lake all along. Even the scientists. They took six yrs to found out which volcano actuali cost the mini ice age 75000 yrs ago, n the eruption was so disruptive, abt 60% of the human population were wiped out, n the ashes actuali drifted all the way from Indonesia, to Canada...can u imagine that?? it was said to be the most recent super volcano eruption and the largest eruption within the last 2million yrs.

The second amazing thing is, i actuali rem abt the facts n is so fascinated by it. After all, u ppl who noe me shd noe i m not a geography or science person. The oni science i like is abt astronomy and astrology, n perhaps, every phenomenon Mother Earth created. Or the kind of "Do you know?" facts....haha.

It's reli wonderful to noe abt this. U guys shd c how big the lake is, n by the way, the water in the lake are actuali rain collected from 75000 yrs ago...cos it was the eruption caused a caldera,which is a special form of volcanic crater, and it collected the rain water to form the lake today. N the island that was at the side of the now vacant volcano slided into the middle of it, which, if u see it now on the map, reli juz look like an island surrounded by lake water, u wun even link it with the word volcano.

Judging by how big the lake is, u could roughly guess how massive the eruption and explosion was to create such a large crater...

Oh wellz....interesting aint it? Now, here is a map showing the famous Lake Toba...

See a crater? n a small island in the middle? Well, the water at Lake Toba is the deepest of all the known lakes, cos, its actuali not a lake after all!

Duno whether the pic nice anot....

Oh...today we practiced dance moves. Ash, as usual, is reli gd la, she actuali came up with simple steps for songs, which are kind of easy to rem. Just like that u noe?? i juz cant tink of it off hand u noe? Cos its so last min, n even if i could, its not going to be easy to rem... reli, i dun chereograph dance moves that are nice n easy to rem that fast. What do we do without her? Seriously.

Oh....i better turn in...tmr is a loooooong day. Early shift, go home late, cos got tuition. The gd ting is, can see dear ba....

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Monday, September 25, 2006
[Happy and sad day...]

[Happy and sad day.....]

Helloz.....

Today, is a happy n sad day. Well, usually sunday is a sad day la. Esp sun nite cos monday blues will kick in ma....But, this time i am happy...y? Heh...cos next wk dear will spend alot of time with me, as he is having his holidays now! He said he will have more time for me. Plus, i m working early shift, so definitely can meet him for a long while, unlike if i work till 7, dun tink have much time to meet....Plus, next Sat is ktv trip...with the gang...

However, i m sad too....But i wasnt sad cos of mon blues. i was sad cos....i didnt rem what i promised my dad. Tmr is my dad's birthday. i didnt forget abt it. Was thinking abt getting him a cd. Then, spent the day meeting lina, having tuition, then met dear at his place. As usual, his nice mother cooked dinner for me, n even gave me chrysanthemum tea to drink...nice rite?

I m missing my point. Well, i m sad cos i forgot that a mth or so ago, i promised to treat my dad dinner. As in i rem promising him i will treat him for a meal, but i forgot that i promised him a treat on his birthday, not juz on any other day. Very heartless n unfilial of me rite?? Seriously, i ought to be shot!

N here i tot it's like, when i not so tight, then treat him, but on his birthday, i will get him a cd or something.

Oh wellz...wat can i do rite? Whats done cannot be undone le...so, tho my dad said it's ok, i no need to treat him next wk, maybe some other time, i could sense his disappointment. Gosh! i reli hate myself sometimes.

So, tho i got alot of tings to look forward to next wk, i oso got alot of things i need to do....First ting is, i haven tot of much dance moves! Gosh...i am supposed to help out in chereographing some dance moves for the children's day performance, n i m like....oni tink abt a move or two....n we oni have like one wk lo...duno whether can chereograph n teach the other teachers dance by next wk...cos next fri is the celebration!!

Ugh!!! n i gotta go to meet one of my lecturers on fri too....n need to go down ngee ann...i go alot of things to do....

It's gonna be another crazy, busy wk....

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Friday, September 22, 2006
Weekends are here!!!

[ The weekends!!! yay!!]

Yoz....peepz.....

Today is Friday...do u noe what it means??? It means weekends are here!! duh... Haha...

Well, tho today i had to go k2...but i wasnt so down today cos today is Friday. So, i am happy....
Plus, i gotta meet up with dear, cos he dun have 2 tuitions today, oni one....with her sister la....

So we had dinner at the NTUC foodfare at CCK....cos got vegetarian food ma...We kind of like always go there now as i am working and having tuition there....Then after that we went to IMM cos dear insisted on buying kettle chips....seriously, he n his kettle chips can drive me nuts. He kept insisting its the best chips in the world n he is not going to buy any other inferior chips like ruffles or lays. Talk abt nuts....

Anyway, talk abt tmr...hmm...duno do wat....feel like watching muvee, i mean, i m a muvee fanatic, so its not surprising, but last sat oredi watch Singapore Dream le...it's ok la, quite funny at certain points of the muvee, but i want to watch Little man or Miami vice....talking abt which...hey, anyone who is reading my blog, can tell me where are the vegetarian places in Singapore that are nice to eat n cheap huh???

Cos reli duno...abit pathetic huh? my mum is a strict vegetarian n has been for so many yrs, n brought us to so many places which sells vegetarian...but somehow, i cant rem some of their locations. The oni two i can rem is the ones at Fortune centre at Bugis n the Jurong Bird Park one....

Well, juz tell me if u ppl noe la huh...

Well...coming back to my work...teaching k2s, can have its pros too la. For example, u dun need to buy so many petty cash things la...cos teaching toddlers n playgrp got alot of cookery to do ma...but the older classes are more on worksheets la....in a way quite fun, but the thing is, i duno whether i will find it fun in the long term cos i m oni relieving ash temporary, i duno the full extent of teaching older classes, but i noe i wun want to teach k2s cos parents got alot of expectations from u...

Oh well....enuf abt work, i dun want to think abt it....abt sch...tho i shd be reading my texts le, but i dun feel like doing it now, juz feel like relaxing...

Oh ya! tmr i gonna do my permanent retainers....yay, no more wearing every nite kind of thing...But u noe, my mum gave me like 1000 bucks in cash, u noe, for my birthday present la, which not oni makes me feel shocked that she is actuali so rich that she can juz carry the cash ard while i barely made it in my savings, n she juz gave it to me like that....

20 fifty dollar notes u noe? Reli worried whether i will be robbed anot...n dear still can joke n say i can create the same phenomenon by bringing 20 2 dollar notes....makes me feel duno whether to laugh or cry.

O wellz, even tho the dentist say the permanent one is oso a metal piece but wun corrode or wat unlike the braces, or food stuck that kind of thing, but i m still wondering, how can wearing a piece of metal in ur teeth not having any food stuck huh?

Well....anyway, when i saw the notes rite, i wish they were mine, cos i got so many things i want to buy.....Tho my mum gave the notes to me, n let me spend it, unless i dun want to wear the permanent retainers n have the hassle of putting it on every nite, which i dun wan, so i juz gotta use the money for this...

Talking abt birthday, my dad birthday coming! But hor, at first wanted to treat him, but kind of broke now... so i tot maybe buy him a CD of his fav oldies ba...maybe la...see how....

Oh......N oso, now i am like, crazy over another actor, which is a first, cos everyone who noe me noe the oni actor i am crazy abt is johnny depp....so this is kind of a shock to me too....haha....i m more crazy abt actresses la, u noe like angelina jolie, liv tyler, cecilia cheung, fann, kristen kreuk...Well, maybe another guy will be JJ, but more abt his talent...unlike johnny, both talent n looks la.....So now, guess who i am crazy abt??

More shocking news ok, it is a korean actor. ME, into korean actors? The oni time i was like, like a korean actor was during the Autumn in My Heart days..where i like Song Seung Hoon n the much swoon over Won Bin...but i m not so crazy abt them that i download their pics on my labbie....

Can guess? Well...he is the actor in My lovely Samsoon la! Oh, no, not the oh-so-gorgeous Daniel Henney, u noe the mixed blood hunk...he is reli the most handsome guy in the show. But i m not crazy abt him. So, it leaves Hyeon Bin! ya, he is the one. He's got the....X-factor. cos, when i first saw him on the show, i dun find him cute or handsome, unlike when i first saw Daniel la, but, as the show goes by....well, i guess i fell for his X-factor, n dimpled cuteness ba....

My colleague lent me the DVD so i watched, n seriously, at first i have no intention of watching this show one u noe? So i never catch it on tv one....Cos i saw on commercial like, no mei nu leh....n even when i saw Hyeon Bin during the commercial, i oso feel not handsome one, so didnt bother to watch it on tv.

But after sooooooo many ppl tell me it's nice, n that my colleague says its so nice till she is going to lend me the DVD....i tot might as well watch it la. Didnt noe once i watched it, i will be hooked, n that didnt realise at the end i will find the actors n actresses good looking. Hehe....so it was oso a pleasant surprise for me i guess...

Reli funny show n main character is reli not the typical pretty korean actress...i oso kind of like her now...she is actuali very pretty one u noe? then cos of this drama, she has to put on weight, so thus, not that pretty le la...So identical to Bridget Jones' Diary in a way, isnt it? Muz salute her for that sia....i wun put on weight if ppl pay me to, juz to look uglier, cos i oredi not pretty when i slim...cant imagine when i m chubby huh....gosh.

Hope tmr is a gd day! Yupz....thats all today...

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Thursday, September 21, 2006
[orientation for wheelock]

[My orientation for the Bachelor degree....]

Hi peeps....it's me again....*yawnz*

Feeling very tired....cos i woke up at 6.50a..m tis morning n worked 7.30a.m. today and slept at two yest nite....Worked early shift oni today cos of the orientation thingy which starts at 7p.m.....
Well....i juz returned from my Wheelock College orientation. Learnt abt a few things tho. Firstly, now then i noe Wheelock College is founded by Lucy Wheelock. N learnt abt their mission. Eh..i forgot wat le. It's stated in their website tho. Anyway, the orientation consisted of a Wheelock College ring file, and the whole entire documents of time frames, how to visit databases on Wheelock websites, etc are inside.

Secondly....juz realised that there are alot of assignments.....i m not joking. Adding on to it is i have to work too u noe? Gosh.... as i mentioned i oredi had the entire time frame....so there are alot of assignments....which means there are alot of citations to do...cos as the lecturer said, pladgerism is not condone in Wheelock....

Thirdly, i oso received my class schedules...reli intensive sia....i duno how i m going to survive. All i noe is, my class starts on 27th oct....but the real intensive 2 wks continous classes start on 6th Nov. Can someone kill me? 2wks leh! plus sat too! Gosh!!!my weekend! Gone! and how to work huh?

Fourthly, i received my readings, which is 2 textbooks, n a few articles today. We are to read all of them by 6th Nov. Well, u will say there is still abt a month plus. But, there are soooo many things to read! Cant possibly finished the whole of the books, have to learn to read smart....

So thats abt it la....but its nice to see my friends from Ngee Ann oso taking the course. Didnt noe they are oso taking! But its nice to see familiar faces, even tho other ppl are oso nice la...

Haiz...besides this, oh ya. Juz realised something today from my work place. Now i reli begin to start seeing ppl who can be two-headed snakes...in a way. Like i duno how i shd behave so i wun offend her, whereby she will tell my sup.

Talking abt my sup...she is reli a silent killer. Cos i used to tink she is reli nice, gentle n motherly....i mean she is still gentle and can be motherly, but i reli need to take back abt the nice part. i mean ya, she is nice in a I-will-not-shout-at-you-and-throw-harsh-words-at-you-when-i-am-angry-at-you kind, but she is deadly in the But-i-will-go-behind-your-back-to-make-sure-u-got-wat-u-deserve-for-making-me-angry. Somehow abit similar to the colleague of mine.

Scary world out there in working life isnt it?

Haiz....n i m still at K2...reli duno how to manage them...ash pls come back on mon! duno whether they have learnt anything from me.

N dear hor, somehow he is behaving quite cold towards me today, so i m feeling insecure now. But i got no time to think abt it as i have my newsletter to finish. So ya....thats abt all today....

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Friday, September 15, 2006
[Something wrong with my hp...]

[Something wrong with my hp....]

Yoz....to u ppl out there....

Reli glad to see mel n lina tagging me! Talking abt lina, somehow i cant get into her blog now...tink she chg her blog skin n now there is this script prompt that i duno how to get in....hmm...tried a few times n keep leading me to friendster home page...Hmm..muz ask her oredi...

Anyway, there is something reli wrong with my hp...or maybe its the 512 memory card..cos somehow the songs i have uploaded cannot be seen in the gallery of my hp...meaning even in my profile oso cant be seen...so i cannot set it as my ringtone....

Then the cable for my nokia oso too loose oredi...then my nokia suite oso siao siao one....so thats why i decided to copy n paste lo...then in the end like this i oso duno what to do...

Well...anyway, i ask mel's boy abt it n he taught me how to solve this prob...hope it works...

Tmr....duno tmr do wat...tink maybe, juz maybe, watching movie....well, yest i bought a new pair of boots! it's darn nice....n quite cheap...but hope it will last, it costs abt 24.90...by rite i shd not be spending but its reli so nice looking n cheap, i just gotta buy it cos the shop is closing down le...but hope it will last la...hope its cheap not cos the quality sux or wat.

Oh...ya. tmr duno meeting *g* anot...see how la....

Sianz, cos ash is sick for another wk...so i gotta relief her class...i mean, i dun mind helping her as a fren n colleague n all, but it's stil sianz cos i reli sometimes duno how to manage them...its reli tough managing the k2s i tell u....n i duno whether i taught them ok...hope when ash go back wun faint n tink the chn didnt learn anything from me...

n i m having sore throat from shouting so much....reli, i wish i can no need to shout when i m at k2s...

Hope ash recovers soon, i m sure thats wat she wants too. Hope tmr is a good day. needed to spend a nice weekend to recharge. Hope i m not going to fall sick. Reli not the time to be sick.

Hmm...i juz realise i m hoping for alot of things...hehe...

Thats all for now...

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Thursday, September 14, 2006
[Looong Day...]

[Loong day......phew!]

Yoz....

It's reli been a long day. Ya. Cos, i had tuition...well, n cos i am working till seven, so it means i gotta take care of multi integration...meaning at that timing oni me n the nursery teacher were there...to take care of all the children. When i say all, reli means all.

So...all the children...playgrp, nursery, k1 and k2s...are crammed in the room to watch vcds...gosh. Imagine the noise level n everything. It's reli chaotic. So hard to keep them quiet u noe? N if u dun keep them quiet, parents come and fetch them, see it's so noisy, might complain....

Besides that, i was reliefing Ash's class-the k2s. Gosh. Teaching them can be very taxing. I wonder how Ash do it. Reli muz ask Ash how she teaches the kids....esp Jeron(more on his attitude), Celest, Benjamin....cos they reli....i duno how to manage them....sometimes. or rather, i duno whether my way of managing is rite...

Anyway, ya, muz salute ash for that.

The gd thing is, i gotta meet dear today! Haha...as usual, we ate vegetarian at cck food court. Quite nice of him cos he ate dinner out when he could eat at home, juz to accompany me oni. So, makes my day not so....sianz.

Haiz. Actuali, since work life, i felt that i dun have a life. Very no life....cos, even tho i have a few close frenz...we dun seem to be able to meet, cos we are busy with our own lives....Then, u noe, working in my field, u dun get to noe much ppl of my age...esp guys....

Dun get me wrong. i m not in the market of finding another bf....juz that...sometimes, guys can make a place more fun, with their craps n everything, cos they are not very sensitive, n usually they are more blunt. So, u dun need to worry abt being bored, and oso no need to worry abt backstabbing. Usually la.

Anyway, juz feel that my life is more static...i m not saying my collegues old or wat so make me dull, but seriously, cos they have family, they cant possibly have that kind of energy, like well, ash has? n since i m easily influenced....i m kind of losing my sense of humor n wittiness....cos i have nobody to crap with....

At least last time i crap alot with mel, nana n jes...now, i m like plain jane. Crap with nobody.

Anyway, tmr meeting Rufang...kind of looking forward to it as i looong time no chat with her. She is a fren worth keeping, cos she reli bothers to keep in touch with me u noe? so i have quite a number of close frenz...which i m grateful for cos some ppl dun have any...u noe those whereby u can reli tell secrets to? ya...

Tat's all for now i guess....gotta slp...

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Monday, September 11, 2006
[Unfaithfulness....is it a crime?]

[Unfaithfulness...is it a crime?]

Yoz....to u ppl out there....

U might be wondering why i am blogging abt unfaithfulness now? Well...let's juz say, i m listening to Rihanna's "Unfaithful'' for too long...haha.

Add on to it, the issue abt the ex...gosh. Seriously, it's in the past...n rem i mentioned abt something unhappy a wk ago? ya....this is it....but i duno who i m more angry with, seriously, not oni abt his lying, but oso that ex's bf ah, totally talking like dear is so crazy over her like that, totally forgetting my existence.

Talk till like dear is still wanting to catch glimpses of her. Duno whether she is the one who mislead her precious boy to tink that way. Whatever the case, whatever the guilt i felt reli diminish significantly when i saw that she didnt explain that dear is oso not interested....

Unless dear gave the impression he is still ga-ga la...

But seriously, wat makes him tink she is so desirable to him? That is a qns not oni to ponder abt, but makes me angry cos he reli forget there is a ME involved whereby dear wun leave me for her.....

Talking abt this makes me mad....

well, i have taken a liking to Rihanna, n her new songs, esp "unfaithful", which goes like this,

Story of my life
Searching for the right
But it keeps avoiding me
Sorrow in my soul
cause it seems that wrong
really loves my company

Hes more than a man
and this is more than love
the reason that this guy is blue
the clouds are rolling in
because I'm gone again
and to him I just can't be true

and I know that he knows I'm unfaithful
and it kills him inside
to know that I am happy with some other guy
I can see him dying

I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...
a murderer

I feel it in the air
as I'm doing my hair
preparing for another day
A kiss up on my cheek
He's here reluctantly
as if I'm gonna be out late
I say I won't be long
Just hanging with the girls
A liar didn't have to tell
Because we both know
where I'm about to go
and we know it very well

cause I know that he knows I'm unfaithful
and it kills him inside
to know that I am happy with some other guy
I can see him dying

I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...
a murderer

His trust
I might as well take a gun and put it to his head
Get it over with
I don't wanna do this
Anymore (anymore)

I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...
a murderer (a murderer)

No no no no Yeah yeah yeah

So this is the whole song...it's nice. not that it entirely reli reflects my r/s...but.... i still like it. Cos it shows the dilemma of not oni the party that is hurt, but the party that is inflicting the hurt...

Oh well....Anyway, after re-reading his blog, i m very unhappy. Ugh.

So that leaves me the question to u guys....is unfaithfulness a crime? And does it oni hurt the party who was being cheated on? Or actuali the party doing the cheating feel hurt too? Ponder, ponder.

But seriously, i am someone who is intolerant of someone cheating on me. Unless u have a gd reason. i mean, i m being realistic. u cant juz condemn a person who cheated without knowing why the person cheat. For all u noe, it might be for a gd reason. Still, i cant condone it...n there are different levels of cheating, if u ask me.

For example, is it the full scale kind? Meaning...the-person-actuali-slept-with-someone-else kind. This one, i tell u, no matter whatever the gd reason is, i cannot condone. Meaning, if anyone of u actuali watched the horrible 3rd sequel to "my fair princess", otherwise known as "huan zhu ge ge" in chinese, u will noe wat i mean.

Not tat i will ask my future husband to slp with someone else....well, so hw abt u guys huh?

Well, sianz, tmr gotta go teach K2....reli, i dun have the patience for them sometimes. Not all of them. Juz some naughty mischevious ones that i needed to shout at.

Ash, i miss u! Pls come back. Serious. i m not gd at teaching them. Sometimes, i wonder whether ash felt that way. But she never said anything. i wonder how i m ever going to teach pri sch kids.

Spent some time with lina, my colleague, juz now. Gd to chat with her... reli need that cos i rarely got the chance to chat with ppl my age...n she is a nice company.

Thats all for now...

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Sunday, September 10, 2006
[Woo....new skin...]

[Hee....change my skin again...]

Yoz....to u ppl out there....

Surprise? ya, i am itchy handed again.... As u can recall, i juz chg my blogskin to the Corpse Bride one not long ago...

Oni juz, i chg my corpse bride one to tis! wahaha...not that i m sick of the corpse bride skin...actuali, i like both that skin n this skin, and i actuali found both of them at the same time de....but cos i like the corpse bride abit more, i used it first...then now i felt i better use this too, as if i left it in my labbie any longer there is a chance i will never use it.

Well, which one u guys prefer? Not that it matters alot...

But, i will put back the corpse bride skin once i m sick of this....

Anyway, yest, i spent some time with dear. And, i felt bloody heart pain, cos the doll shoes i bought for 19.90 cut my skin. So i gotta buy another pair of sandals....Gosh. Not oni i wasted money to buy a new pair, i wonder whether is it possible for me to ever wear the doll shoes which i juz bought ever again...

Waste money sia...so heart pain...

We went Potong Pasir for a tour....the housing estate there looked reli old..even the bus interval is so long...like we waited abt 20mins for a bus...

And they dun even have feedle bus service...Gosh.

But it was nice spending time with dear again, after such a hectic wk....

Oh...i juz read my email n realize my degree has an orientation prog on 21st Sept...Hope i can cope with work n sch...

Thats all for now..tink meeting dear later..cos his neighbours invited me n him over for buffet...cos got baby one month old....

Duno whether dear going....cos he is sick...see how la. I m going to go eat....cos got tuition...

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Friday, September 08, 2006
[Phew....finally over..]

[Phew....finally this wk is over....]

Hi.....it's me again....

Actuali, by rite i shd be sleeping....Cos tmr i got work....

But i guess i am juz happy that everything is finally over....can rest....

Ya, i mean the Kids in Charge is over....cant believe did so much documentation for the photo board and everything and so fast everything is over....

But i shd nt complain. I mean, i m actuali fine with it u noe? i tot at first i m doing all these work for some recognition mainly from corrine, my educare curriculum specialist...and then parents....

Now that it's over, n that i can tell u corrine n the parents didnt reli look at my documentation, i still feel glad and proud of the photo boards cos i duno....to me, its juz reli nice to see so many photos of the children doing work....

Besides, i shd not be complaining cos my class reli, compared to ash's and lina's class, didnt reli have that much impressive photos or photo board...

Anyway, i was reli impressed with them la, cos they presented everything reli well, and they did nt seem nervous at all u noe? they can juz keep talking, esp ash, without a script...like it's so comfortable speaking to the parents...

For me, i was so awkward, i felt i sounded reli robotic. Monotone kind. i reli duno how i can brush up on my presentation skills...

Oh wellz... on the whole, the KIC went ok. Didnt have any major flaws....Talking abt ash, wish she dun go....tho i oso dun want to wish she didnt get in, cos as a fren, knowing how badly she wants to go into the child study centre, it's not nice to wish her cannot get in.

But on the other hand, i feel that our centre needs her. She is reli capable. Dun get me wrong. Lina is oso capable. But...one capable person is not enuf...Ash is reli an asset to the centre, with her so many contributions and i m reli impressed with her documentation....

Moreover, with her being so energetic, she is like the sunshine u noe? lighting up the place cos she can reli talk....quite fun to hang ard with, cos her energeticness is reli contagious....when i hang ard her, i felt compelled to work more too...u noe...

And she always gives me advices....quite nice person, even tho she can be quite bossy when she is busy. haha....but i noe she didnt mean anything bad or wat...

Oh well....better turn in now...tmr got work u noe?? sianz...thats the sianz part...cos i oredi very tired...still gotta work. Nitez ppl...

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Wednesday, September 06, 2006
[Ugh!

[ Busy busy week....Ugh! Lousy blogger!]

Ugh!! Damn pissed off with blogger. I am typing this the second time u noe? Something wrong with blogger!

Ya, as I said earlier, I am back from Melaka. The trip wasn't bad at all....cos I got to bond with my colleagues...cos now we call each other god sisters...

They reli took gd care of me during the trip....always making sure I am ard them, and doting upon me by taking care of me....kind of reminds me of my best friends, Qi and Hui...

Well, by rite, I shd be uploading pics of the trip...but as I mentioned, I am actuali doing my photo board for KIC- Kids In Charge now. But, digressing la...decided to blog awhile....so no uploading of photos...

Well, I m reli worried abt KIC. Cos not oni is my educare curriculum specialist is coming down, but I m worried abt my presentation to the parents. Which is quite pathetic, considering other teachers from other classes are worried abt how their children will fare...to them, presentation is like, nothing lor...

But I m worried abt presentation as I m not gd at it. Meaning, I have slow reaction kind, I cant react to last min situations well. So, it oso means that I cant give a speech without any paper or preparation.

In fact, even with preparation, I still need a piece of paper abt the speech. I can oni give speech by reading off the paper with my speech on. It was proven that if I juz present without any paper, I will get tongue tied...which almost happened during the open hse on July.

Sometimes even with paper I oso dun present well....haiz....wonder how I actuali managed to survive my poly presentation days....

Wat if there are last min situations? I oso not gd at coping with it....I oni have fast reactions when I m provoked....so unless I get someone to provoke me on that day, or my reaction to crisis is sloooow....

On the other hand, it's oso not wise to get myself provoked, cos when I m provoked, I might get vulgar or rude or worse....I duno wat other horrible things I will do cos I usually do things when I m provoked that I tend to regret later when I m more calmed down....so not a wise decision in case my presentation turn vulgar....

Plus the curriculum specialist coming down....sure more stressed lor....oredi presenting in front of parents who are of all kinds, friendly, kind, nasty, bossy, picky...now my educare curriculum specialist coming down??? Kill me man...

Somemore, as much as I like cookery activities, I m not a gd organizer and cook. So....it is usually messy when I conduct cookery.....talking abt that! Gosh, I better write down my speech and recipe on cue cards!

Wat am I going to do sia?? Haiz....juz hope to get over fri as soon as possible....

Sianz oso cos sat working.....

Oh....last sat went to slp over at his place......quite nice cos I slept on his bed while he slept on the floor and before that he drove me to jurong hill.......nice relaxing hill......which I need it cos before that I was reli upset with him abt something that happened before I went melaka....dun wish to mention it cos it's over....

Oh, wellz......See how it goes la......back to work againz......

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