Sunday, October 08, 2006
Awkward Day
[What an awkward day...]Yo peepz...Today, i did alot of things. However, i didnt bring my boy to the Sunflower Vegetarian as planned. Firstly, i went for facial. Ya, u heard me rite. Facial. Nope, not a free one at my mom's beauty spa, but at Dermafloral. For those of u who found this name familiar, it's cos this salon is the one that is always having road shows n promotions. I was sort of conned into it, cos it's cheap n all. Not that it's that bad. After all, their salon looks reli nice, like my mum's. Perhaps even better in terms of deco, but smaller than my mom's. N they didnt make my face rot or something. But it's not as gd as they claimed either. N i didnt realize they are not exactly as gd as they claimed n felt conned till my mom told me she was oso approached n she went before so as to see what product they use n all, n she told me it's not as gd as they claimed n it's not cheaper either, it's juz the way they do to increase sales. But what reli made me hesitate to go n reli fully realize it's all sales talk when i used the product sample they gave after i bought their coupon. I used n guess what? it made my skin oilier. In fact, it made my skin damn oily, that i had pimples popping out. N if u noe me, i m not someone who has pimples, except during my menstruation. i mean, i have other problems like white heads n black heads, but not pimples, thanks to my mom's products.So, when i used n realized it's oily, i didnt use it anymore. So when i was approached by any other salons, i didnt try le. N i was approached by the same company twice lor. Anyway, back to my day, of cos, the facial was relaxing n all, but i did facial before. I noe definitely, after facial, ur skin will glow. I tell u, DermaFloral made my skin glow, but with alot of oil! My boy kept saying my skin is sooooo glossy, translation, oily. N gosh! i used my fingers to juz brush across, n OMG....the layer of oil on my finger looked like the oil u squeezed out from the fries!Even the facial i did at a non branded, auntie kind of salon, was better. Cos at least my skin glowed with radience, not oil. Gosh. u will never catch me agreeing to any promotions or watever again. N i wun be so nice to these ppl oredi, if they ever pushed me into buying la. Cos being nice to them is being cruel to myself. Lucky today, the lady who served me was reli nice in the sense that, tho they did try to promote, they dun push u. Well, that aside, after that, went to dear's sch with him. As usual, he commented that his NUS is better cos got Subway n Mcdonalds, while my ex sch, Ngee Ann, dun even have any. Which, for once, i totally agree with him. Then, we met up with mike n andre....and guess who else came? N once again, nice dear lied to me. Cos somehow, i noe she is coming. Dun ask me why. A girl's instinct i guess. Cos, i somehow feel she is coming, when andre, called dear n asked him something. Tho i didnt hear what he asked, i noe something is amiss when dear said something like, "Come along la, if she wants....(andre speaks) dun care abt her la." Somehow, i noe it's andre asking abt whether she can come, n whether i wud mind. Cos seriously, who is the oni person that will make all of them asked whether i am ok with it anot if that person comes along? N oso the fact that who else dear will say "bu yao guan ta la" when it's concerning abt her coming?Seriously, i noe all along that, they actuali wanted to ask her to come join us on outings a couple of times, cos i heard them saying she is coming, then after that, somehow she didnt turn up. N there was once whereby Fion asked how come she didnt come, when they told her she was supposed to. N they gave their famous eye movements. Come on la. I may not be gd at Science, studies, sports, etc. But i m not stupid either. i noe that whenever they left certain things unexplained, it is to avoid making certain ppl unhappy. Which, in this case, involving her, i totally noe what they meant.I am touched that in order to avoid making me unhappy, they go to the extent of not asking her along. N oso touched that andre asking abt whether i am ok with it, tho i am upset that not oni dear lied to me when i asked whether the person andre asked is her , and that whether he said "bu yao guan ta la" the 'ta' meant me, cos he said i am over suspicious. N he juz said that andre is bringing a fren along and asked whether mike wud mind another fren come along, that's why he said "bu yao guan ta la"I mean seriously la, even i oso not that stupid. Mike mind more company? Like since when?? Mike loves having ppl ard. He dun even mind having me ard even when the person he wanted to meet was only dear. But i noe better than to pursue it cos dear wud deny it, juz to avoid a quarrel n the trouble of explaining n all. So, i juz kept quiet, rather than insisting on him telling me the truth. Seriously, he wud juz turn the tables ard n said i am juz being so paranoid. N i am totally trusting my instincts, after all, after so many incidents, esp the one abt his ex, i noe the extent that he cud lie to. As long as i have no evidence, he wun admit. Juz so to avoid trouble. Cos he feels telling me the truth will be troublesome and may lead to quarrel. N he is the kind of person who dun like hassles.So since i noe the truth, n tho i dun like his lying, i decided to let it go cos i dun want to pick a fight either. N since i was the one in the past, made a big fuss when he told the truth, i couldnt entirely blame him. So, since i dun want to make a big fuss out of this, n ruined my r/s cos of this, i did something i dun do in the past....i tolerated.Not that seeing her was as bad as i tot it was. After all, even tho i dun like her, i dun wan to be the bad guy who prevented them from meeting someone they are close to. Well....One of the reasons why i dun like her, besides her being involved when me n dear broke up the prev time, was that i rem she totally ignored me when she first saw me. I seriously dun mind her coming along, as long as i dun feel left out or awkward....n judging by how she treated me the prev time and add on to it was that she was involved when me n him broke up....i noe i wud feel uncomfortable and awkward....So when i saw her today, i didnt even bother to make any attempt of talking to her at first, as my resolution was that if she is going to treat me as if i dun exist, i am going to do that too. Why shd i give someone respect when the person gave me none? So at first, when she didnt speak to me, i was moody, as she oni talked to, as usual, the guys. Cos i felt awkward, uncomfortable and left out....esp since they were talking abt some past that i was not involved in, i was pissed n bored. Luckily, Mike was there. He was nice, as usual, and cud tell i was moody. N dear, as usual, knowing he did something wrong n i discovered n yet he could not admit, treat me well, trying not to let me feel left out, but kept holding my hand n putting his hand on my shoulders.iThings started to turn better when she spoke to me. If u noe me, u wud noe i am a softie at heart. If u are nice to me, i wud definitely be nice to u, no matter how bad u were to me in the past. So, of cos i talked to her. As of now, i wun say we are getting along so well that we are exchanging numbers, telling secrets and all, but at least i am more comfortable with her. i doubt i will be good frenz with her, but at least, she can come along to our outing the next time without me showing attitude face la...that's all i am saying. O wellz....i dun even want to start on andre asking her along in the first place....but at least he asked whether i wud mind la. Whatever la. Tho its reli awkward, i have oredi survived it. Anyway....gtg....zzzz...Oh ya! Totally looking forward to meeting Steph on mon...n october fest next sun. Hehe...=) Something to look forward to next wk...
Joyce Kho Ming Zhen ♥
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