Thursday, March 29, 2007
Procrastination kills...
[A lazy and crazy entry]
I am feeling soooo lazy nowadays that I kept procrastinating. Not that I am a stranger to Mr. Procrastination.
I mean, seriously, I don't know how hardworking people do it. As in, do their assignments and work stuff way beforehand.
I can't. Somehow, if I try to do my work early, I will do it very very slowly. AND my ideas will be soooo stuck in my brain, that nothing good really comes out. Or at least nothing constructive.
Now, this might sound like some excuse, but it's true. I did try to do things beforehand.
Somehow, my brain is programmed in such a way that when I do things beforehand, NO ideas will come out. Or at least no GOOD ideas. Somehow, to me, the ideas will all be deemed as lousy. Maybe I am too much of a perfectionist that when I do stuff early, every idea I have, will be deemed as lousy.
Anywayz, I have already handed in my assignment for my last module. Oh wait, I did not mention before that I actually had an assignment to hand in on 26th March, which had of course, passed. OH wellz, it really had been some time since I last blogged, haven't it?
Since the last time I blogged, I had been caught up with work and study.
So now, since I am not having classes for this week, I am really lazing around.
Seriously, I am so lazy, that I even have time to find myself another idol. Well, he is, of course, tall, handsome, and manly. Not only that, he is very gentle, sensitive, protective and sweet too.
Well, at least in the show he acted in, he is. After all, Jiro(of Fahrenheit) said he has tian shi ban de lian kong, mo gui ban de sheng cai (translation: angelic face, demonic figure), which is a surprising contrast! Which I totally agree, cos' like Jiro, I felt he is a surprise to me when I saw his figure in Hana Kimi, cos' I thought he will be some skinny fella...so NOT true!!
You guys maybe wondering who I am talking about. He is the main actor from Hana Kimi, and he acted alongside Ella Chen. His name is Wu Zun, or Chun. (Well, you can see his blog through my links.)
Seriously, I never thought I will still like boybands or actors from boy bands. I mean, I enjoy looking at handsome actors la, seriously, I am not dead you know, which girl in their right state of mind doesn't like looking at handsome guys??
But you know, this time is like I am crazier than ever, cos' I even go to find his blog, and like the boyband he is in. And if you ask me why, I mean, besides his looks, I seriously cannot tell you exactly why. Perhaps it's his character in Hana Kimi, maybe it is cos' of his talent in acting or singing. But whatever it is, I started liking Fahrenheit because of him.
I consider this as a joke played on me or something. Cos' you know why??? Firstly, I always thought I am so over the F4 era. I mean, the only boyband that I still like is Backstreet Boys. Secondly, I felt that the boybands from chinese scenes are gimmicks for companies to earn money cos' pretty boy bands are such a good way to earn money as there will always be crazy girls to go after them.
And after I was over my teens and F4 (last time during my era I used to like them for awhile, cos' of the show Meteor Garden, which I watched the original animation before and I like it), I consider girls who went after boybands are simply CRAZY. I mean, it's one thing to ogle and admire la, it's another thing to really chase after the boybands!
So imagine my own horror and the insult to my own ego when I realize I like Fahrenheit. Yeah, it's because of Chun, but nonetheless, still a boyband. And I even have the insulting impulse to do the crazy things that female fans always do, which is to chase after them!!!!
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I mean, I am ga-ga over handsome actors before, but they are not in any boybands! Look at Johnny Depp, Kim Jeong Hoon and Mike He. THEY are definitely not in any boybands! AND Johnny Depp is really a very talented Oscar material actor!!
My bruised ego!!!!
Hence, I decided that a few reasons are available to explain my behaviour. Either (1) I am too free due to my procrastination and it is killing my brain cells, or (2) Chun's attractiveness is sooooo hard to resist, or (3)I'm getting crazier than before.
Hmm.........probably it's all three reasons.
PROCRASTINATION KILLS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
It turns sane people into insane nutheads! At least, I think it killed my practical brain cells. Not that I have a lot of them in the first place. Just what's left of it was killed. So now, I am gaga over Fahrenheit. Or at least Chun. Not that it's really bad, just very shocking to realize that.
Back to the topic on procrastination. Yeah, I have tons of work to do, and I am not doing it. So lazy that I did not even want to change my blogskin! I mean, last time I used to change like, once a fortnight at least??
Now, I am not changing cos' I AM LAZY. To give some credit to myself, I am still very much in love with my current skin.
STILL, I am lazy.
OH wellz. I can't believe I just blogged so much crap. I must be missing my kwappy gang - The Shawl Gals!!! (Ah meow!!!! I miss you!!!) Ah! I just thought of another reason for my craziness! It's also probably because it's been a long time since I last crap!! Come think of it, I haven't been socializing much!!!!
I am SOCIALLY DEPRIVED!!
(Yes Meow, socially deprived, not sexually. Hmm...)
Well, let's end this lazy and crazy entry with something that will raise your fahrenheit (Not degree celsius, cos' ever since I started liking Fahrenheit, I like to measure temperatures using fahrenheit. Yeah, I'm nuts.)
A photo of Chun!!!
Ok la, three photos la, not one.... I must be really crazy that I forgot my math...But he is really cute right??? Since I already put up three photos, one more surely won't hurt rrright???
This one is really cute, I guarantee you that.
Muahaha! Cute right??? I am NUTS.
Look at my obsession with Chun, and you will see that I am not only LAZY, but CRAZY as well!!!
Joyce Kho Ming Zhen ♥
9:14 PM
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Monday, March 12, 2007
All kinds of people..
[The perverted weirdos]There are all kinds of people in this world. I know. I believe most people know too. Now, let me tell you a true story about the two weirdos that I met today. Yeah. Both of them had some things in common. For example, they are both males, both are probably in their mid-forties(my guess, judging by their appearance), both smiled at me, AND both of them were on vehicles, using their honk/bell at me. I was dragging my feet to the MRT station to take the train to work, when I met Weirdo No.1. He was riding on a bicycle. From a distance, I saw him coming. Yes, even though I did not wear my spectacles, I am not that near sighted that i can't even see his bicycle from a distance. Then, since I saw him from a distance, I quickly siam(move away), you think I am so stupid meh?Guess what that bugger did? He still rang his bell at ME! Mind you, I already siam, and since I am not a fat person(cos' I am often told I am too skinny), I am already not occupying much space on the pavement. So when I siam the first time, which was the time when I saw him at a distance, I was already walking so much at the left side that I was almost walking on the grass. AND when he rang the bell at me, I siam again, this time definitely walking on the grass, all the while puzzled and wondering why he, unlike other cyclist, needed so much space and that why he needed to continuously ring the bloody bell, since I already siam again to the grass patches. It was until I saw the bloody grin on his face while he continued ringing his bloody bell that I realized he was doing it on purpose!!!! YES, all the while non-stop ringing from his bell, even when I siam till I was walking on the grass!!! I really wanted to kick his bike and rip the bloody bell off his stupid bike!!!!GOSH. There must be something wrong with him. That was why I call him a weirdo. AND since his grin seemed so lecherous, I call him the perverted weirdo. Now, for the story of Weirdo No.2. This time, again, I was walking towards the MRT station, but on a happier note, because I was walking home from work. I was waiting at the pavement for the vehicles to drive by as I wanted to cross the road. As there were a lot of vehicles moving by, I stood there for some time. Now, all this seemed like an ordinary day. Then, Weirdo No.2 appeared. He came by in the form of a man (duh!), and he was driving his blue lorry. Well, at first I didn't pay attention to him because, to me, his was just another vehicle from the so many vehicles before his that I had to wait for to pass. BUT his honking caught my attention, especially since he honked as he passed me. Cos' every vehicle was moving by me reasonably slow (cos' quite a lot of vehicles) without honking. At first I thought the lorry was honking at some vehicle in front of him, till I SAW HIS FUCKING FACE!!YES, that bugger was looking at me as he passed me and honked, with an ugly grin on his face!!!!What is his problem???? His grin while he looked at me looked freaking lecherous to me so I hereby called him perverted Weirdo No.2! AND at this point I felt like buying lots of honks and blast it at his ears!Seriously, what is their problem? Even though their freaking grins looked fucking lecherous, I am still wondering what I had done to make them grin like lechers at me. It can't be (*gasps*) my attire! OH yeah, my attire was soooooo sexy, that it made them go bonkers and honkers on me. Picture this: I was wearing black FROM HEAD TO TOE, and I was in short sleeve black shirt, and loooong boring BLACK PANTS. I mean, I was going to work, mind you! How's that for sexy??? Well, if those work clothes are sexy, I shudder to think if they see me wearing my pretty skirts or my favourite boots, what will they think of those??Well, if it is not because they felt I looked sexy, but that I am pretty, then I have to rant about this. Why only weirdos and perverts find ME pretty????? Why lah??? Why can't it be some normal handsome guy of MY AGE find me pretty, WHY must it be some old man (I don't care if they are only in mid-forties, to me they ARE JUST OLD LAH!!!) and not some handsome normal guy of my age???(Yeah, I know, I am repeating myself, but I can't help it.) Note that I said handsome normal guy, cos' I met an ugly weird guy of my age before professing his undying love for me when he only saw me ONCE, love at first sight he claimed. But professing his undying love??? WEIRD. Not to mention how it made me wanted to puke. Sorry, I digressed, that story for another time. Back to the topic, or rather the question that I kept asking. Let me tell you why. Because I am not pretty lah. So simple!!!! So, in conclusion, I AM NOT PRETTY, nor was I wearing too sexily that they were so called seduced. It's just that these old men are just plain weird and perverted(due to their lecherous grin which were directed at me), and that they probably honked and rang their bell at any young girls. So FREAKY and YUCKY lah!(*Bleh*)
Joyce Kho Ming Zhen ♥
8:45 PM
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Sunday, March 11, 2007
A woman's woes
[The BLOODY days]Sometimes, it sucks to be a woman.That's how i feel anyway. Especially when you have to stay in the bloody HOT Singapore. Well, you will think that after 21 years of staying in Singapore, i will get use to the hot climate. Yes, i am used to it, even though i still complain about the weather.However, the weather gets damn irritating when you are a woman bleeding in the hot Singapore. YES, i am a bleeding woman right now. Not that i hurt myself lah, duh, though that can be irritating due to the hot weather too, with sweat in the wound and all. But that is not my point. My point is, menstruation. YES, the irritating biological cycle that women have to go through once every month, unless she is pregnant or menopausing or a HE in disguise. Well, you will ask me that since i am already 21, i should get use to it by now, after all, i have been bleeding for almost half of my 21 years of life. Seriously, yeah, i am used to it. As in, at least now i am not traumatized by the sight of the blood anymore. But that doesnt mean that i cant complain about the painful cramps AND the hot weather. Why do i have to complain about the weather?Let me tell you why. Firstly, it's of cos, the obvious reason that the stupid weather makes me irritated due to the sweat down there! For guys who are reading this, want to know how it feels like? Try stuffing lots of cotton wool down your groin area and take a walk outdoors when the weather is HOT. Then you tell me how you feel. AND add the irritating sweaty feeling to my already bad mood, you know, PMS, you get one really MOODY and NASTY Joyce. That is the first reason. The second reason is another one that makes me curse at the STUPID HOT weather.. Tell me how do you feel when the weather is so damn hot that make you so sweaty, and you have to drink hot tea at the coffee shop?? SHIOK or not? For me, NOT! Please lor! It's already bad enough that i am bleeding and sweating and feeling damn suffocated down there, and other parts of my body sweaty and hot as well, i have to drink HOT TEA so as not to make me have severe painful cramps??Well, i cant take it. So, i heck care and decided to enjoy first then suffer the pain later and drink cold drinks instead. Of course, i am not stupid to suffer the pain and not do anything about it ok! i do try to eat pain relievers and all. But well, everyone knows that it is not healthy. If you don't know before, now you know liao lah. So i tried not to. But i still eat when i cant take the pain, which is pretty much every month once. So i ate them, knowing it is unhealthy, feeling guilty and worried cos' i wonder if i remain dependent on pain relievers cos' i drink panadols for the rest of my life, what are the side effects going to be? But i simply cant stand drinking hot drinks when the weather is so freaking hot! So it is bad enough that i have to feel guilty and worried about eating pain relievers cos' i cant give up my preference for cold drinks, it is worse when i have learnt that by drinking cold drinks, it is going to be harmful to you in the long term!!!HOW do i KNOW this?? Well, my mum told me about this. Cos her doctor told her that. How is it harmful??To tell you this i have to tell you a short story. Well, my mom has two tumours in her womb. They are said to be non cancerous (Thank god!), but nonetheless, the tumours do cause her discomfort (think having trouble passing urine), and she is also lucky that they are not cancerous. Point is, one of the tumour is formed by blood clots, according to tests and x-rays done. Well, the doctor told my mom, that the blood-clot-tumour(dont know what its actual name is), is formed by drinking cold drinks!!!!Cos' the cold drinks will cause blood to clot in your womb during menstruation, and so in the long term, it will form into a tumour!!! AND the doctor says that for women who have blood clots coming out rather than just liquid blood during their menstruation, have to watch out cos' in the long term, it can, like i mentioned earlier, form into a tumour!!! AND the doctor says, for this kind of woman, better dont drink cold drinks even when they are not menstruating!!!!!!!!!Now, you tell me, with this piece of information, how am i going to feel better?? I am already feeling guilty and worried enough about the panadol thing, then now this!!! I mean, i am one of those women that the doctor warned about, i DO HAVE BLOOD CLOTS when i am bleeding!!!So, now, i either heck care, or do something about it. Of course, in order to stop worrying and feeling guilty, i should really stop drinking cold drinks. YES, even when the weather is FUCKING HOT i have to drink HOT TEA. TELL me lah! How to feel good and not complain???? I think at this rate, i am going to have PMS everyday.Who should i blame? Cos' i really feel like blaming someone or something. Should i blame GOD, for making me a woman??Hmm... No, i do like being a woman sometimes. THE DOCTOR perhaps?? If he didnt tell my mom, i will continue taking my pain relievers with just a little guilty conscience...hmm...No, he was just doing his job and all. MY MOM? After all, if she didnt ask the doctor why she has the tumour, i won't know about this. As the chinese saying goes, bu zhi zhe wu zui(translation: people who don't know are not guilty and wrong). No, better not blame her, cos' she will stop paying my sch fees(joking lah...), she already has tumour, how can i blame her??? it will be so heartless! I KNOW. Blame the stupid BLOODY HOT SINGAPORE SUN!!! If it's not so fucking hot, i wont have all these problems. Like in Switzerland or New Zealand, i am sure the women there dont face this kind of problems. So yeah! Blame the freaking Singapore sun. YOU , MR. SINGAPORE SUN, is the root of my bleeding problem. WHY MUST YOU BE SO HOT?Ok, enough of that. THE END. P/S: Sorry blogders for the rantings, but i am a bleeding woman right now, and hence, in no good mood. Be thankful that i am not so unreasonable as to blame YOU for my mood, yadda yadda.
Joyce Kho Ming Zhen ♥
11:30 PM
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Monday, March 05, 2007
The thing about snobs...
[People that i would love to hate and hate to love..]Another day has passed by...Recently, alot of unhappy thoughts from the past came surfacing back to me...I guess it's cos of her. But anyway, i am not going to blog about her today. More like i want to blog about people of her kind. What do i mean about people of her kind?SNOBS. People who think they are too cool to hang around you. People who think they are too good looking to be your friend. People who laugh at you because they feel you look ugly, or dress funny, which means that they think they are more superior in terms of those departments, to laugh at you. Now. I am not going to pretend to be a saint and say that i never laugh at people before. Like if on the streets i see someone dressing really really in a weird way, chances are, i may laugh. Can't help it. That is IFthe person really dresses in a weird way.I am not talking about this kind of laughter. I am talking about those SNOBS from school days. Those who don't laugh at you just only once, but more than that. AND it makes you feel small and wondering what is it about you that is so hilarious. Is it because of your looks? It couldnt be about dress sense if you are talking about secondary school days. These people, who happened to be better looking and attract the attention of the opposite sex like bees are attracted to honey, makes you feel inferior to him or her. ADD that with some hypocrisy, now this is the kind of people i DESPISE the most. It is bad enough that you have to feel inferior, thanks to the jeering, this kind of people have to act all sweet and innocent in front of other people whom they want to leave a good impression of (I guess, cos it's the selected few that they do not show their true snobby colours)....MAKES me want to puke. AND add these character traits on with cowardly jeering, ULTIMATE disgusting behaviour. Why do i have such hatred for this kind of person? Because they do exist, and i met one personally before. I have been feeling inferior thanks to her constant laughing at me behind my back, AND it certainly does not help when my boy used to have a deep crush ( i used to think it's love, but come to think of it, she has never really shown her TRUE COLOURS to him) on her. Come to think of it, she only laughed at me in front of my friends, but not him. AND she will only do that when she has friends around her.OH wellz. There are all kinds of people on Earth. i am blogging this entry to get this off my chest. Cos' there was a period of time when people(my boy included), thinks that she is the victim, cos' probably these people thinks she looks better than me (more sweet and innocent looking) and what with her being more popular with guys.WELL. i must give her credit though. She can be really nice and sweet to selective people, meaning people she wants and chooses to be nice and sweet to. So these poor people have no idea how bad and vindictive she can be. Not to mention revengeful. Finally got this off my unendowed chest. Hope that i will stop having these pangs of inferiority complex the next time i see her. That's all for now.
Joyce Kho Ming Zhen ♥
9:24 PM
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Sunday, March 04, 2007
GOSH!!!
[Freaking out right now!]Helloz.I AM FREAKING OUT RIGHT NOW!!!!Ya. Why, i can hear u ask me...Cos i just realised.... on top of the 12-page assignment that i gotta hand in tomorrow, i still have another 3-page assignment....AND a case study, more like collection of datas for that case study. Thing is, i am not exactly done with my 12-page assignment...AND i seriously don't understand what is needed for the case study thing....cos it is mentioned in so many point forms that it sounds so complicated!! i don't understand what they want at all!!!So are these reasons enough to make me panic? YES!!!!!!!Somebody save me!!
Joyce Kho Ming Zhen ♥
2:50 PM
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