The Lady Joyce Kho Ming Zhen
A LeO
BoRn On 4th AuGuSt 1985
Early Childhood Educator
Cant live without my loved ones
A kid at heart
She is worth: PRICELESS

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Friday, November 30, 2007
The decision

[No turning back]

Yes.

I have made the decision. And I should not look back.

But I can't stop my tears from falling, cos' it hurts to leave my children.
All my plans for them
My thoughts and dreams of seeing them graduate
The anticipation of the tears that will come when they graduate
Plans of improving their reading and writing
How I can improve my teaching to better their learning
Leading them to dance and perform
Gone. It feels like I abandon them.

I can't stop my tears from falling, cos' it hurts to leave the staff
Especially auntie
Whom I have already regarded her like my grandma
Even though she nags
Even though I was annoyed at her nags sometimes
At the end of the day
It is because she is like my family
That is why I show my annoyance to her
That is why she only nags at me, not other staff
Cos' only family
Will be comfortable enough to do such things
Moreover, how can I forget
The kindness and homely warmth feeling she made me feel
In the new cold environment
On my first day of work?

But no matter how much it hurts
In life there are always times where one have to leave
No matter how painful
No matter how sad
Yet your mind still tells you to leave
Even though your heart wishes to stay
Cos' this isn't about romance or only about passion
But more for your future and opportunities

I have been told countless times
Not to let my heart rule over my head
And give up good opportunities
That come by so easily and effortlessly
Especially when it is regarding
my future
my life

I guess I should really thank my mum
For her selfless love and decision
Solely thinking for me for my future
Being so thoughtful, resourceful and helpful
And being practical
Not emotional

But on the other hand
A tiny part of me wishes
Though it is an ungrateful wish
That she is not so thoughtful or helpful
Not so practical but more emotional
Then I won't be in this situation now.

Whatever it is
I have already made the decision
And I know even though it hurts badly
I have to leave.
Even though it is selfish of me
To abandon them
For my own future.

Maybe I am being to emo. Or just being a moron.
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