The Lady Joyce Kho Ming Zhen
A LeO
BoRn On 4th AuGuSt 1985
Early Childhood Educator
Cant live without my loved ones
A kid at heart
She is worth: PRICELESS

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♥Purple*AuTuMn*Wiccan*
♥Magic*Glitters&Blings*
♥Stars*Astronomy*Astrology*
♥Snowflake*Maple Leaf*
♥White Lilies*lavender*
♥baby breaths (the flower)*
♥fairytales/princess*crowns*
♥rings*earrings*
♥peppermint green tea*
♥Salmon sakshimis*cream pastas*
♥surprises*romance*
♥hugs*smilez*fun*
♥sprinkles*crystals*girl power*
♥goth*vampires*
♥read*eat*sleep*
♥movies*psp games*iPhone*
♥Pirates of the Caribbean*
♥Edward Scissorhands*
♥Transformers*X-Men*
♥LOTR*Harry Potter*
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♥Kristen Kreuk*
♥Michael Jackson*
♥Britney Spears*
♥Nicole Scherzinger*
♥Formula One races*Ferrari*
♥quotes*stories*
♥Boots*Bags*Baby-G watches*
♥Perfumes:*CK Eternity
moment*Clinique Happy
Heart*Elizabeth Arden Pretty*
♥Galaxies*Universe*
♥Winter*tattoos*hennas*
♥Beach*Ocean*

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N*two-headed snakes*Snobs*
NPpl who thinks they are gd-looking and so they are superior*
NPpl who act cute*
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NWhiners/Annoyers*Irritants*
N betrayers*two timers*
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Ndisappointments*
NRapists*Molesters*
NHer temper*Her emo*
NHer insecurities*

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♥MeL
♥SaRah
♥LiNa
♥FiOn

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Wednesday, December 30, 2009
New year new challenges

[ Last few days of 2009]

Yes. Since it's the second last day of 2009, I just want to reflect on the past year and say I don't want to waste my entry on this friend who hurt me anymore. Someone who doesn't know how to reflect and apologise and only knows how to complain to a third party how she was being hurt by me without thinking whether she DID anything wrong too.

But it's a good lesson learnt and through bad times I see true friends:)

The greatest lesson of the year is that I have finally tasted the feeling of being stabbed at the back by someone whom I treated as a good friend who I treated sincerely and even when she hurt me I still apologise for my part cos I truly felt bad and wanted to be her friend.

A good friend who I stood up for, never said(past tense) a single bad word about, encouraged sincerely, whom I never minded coming along for my dates( ask Andre and Suqi when they tag along) etc. Just like how I treat ALL my other friends. I never had any problems with them.

And what I got in return for the genuine offer of friendship was how self-centered, brainless, lazy, emo drama queen etc( yes, there are more nasty words about me) which I never get before from other friends that I have treated in the same way towards this person.

And stupid people like me need OTHER PEOPLE to tell me what's going on if not I would have gone on treating this person as a friend without knowing my flaws irked this person so badly she only wants my best friend's friendship and hence can say so many things about me and when things happen, it's always JOYCE'S FAULT cos she is too emo and self centered.

But I guess everyone at a point of time will have to learn a lesson on trust, and now I know why some of my friends are so guarded and always warned me.

Anyway, there is no point in going on cos' there is no need to go into details now about what this person said behind my back about me, the trust is broken and I learn now.

But I am not going to be cynical. Maybe someday I will be able to say what really happened without any emo cos' I don't want to be called a drama queen for my inability to control tears. I cry when I am sad, or angry or both, can?

But I am not going to fill my heart with hatred. It's a tiring deal. I hated a girl who was nasty to me before and I learnt it's a tiring deal. If I am going to start hating people who hurt me, I am going to die young la, thank goodness there aren't many people who hurt me.

Anyway, this year is going to end and I don't want to linger on the past mistakes anymore. :)

I am going to face a whole new lot of challenges next year. K2 classes are going to be a challenge with camp, graduation and lessons preparing for primary one.

Especially when I got news today from my boss that I have 6 new boys. SIX! Five PRCs and one Indian. I am so going to die while managing them. If you see a fat Joyce or an old wrinkled Joyce please don't be alarmed.

And also Eileen is going to due soon for delivery and I don't want her to suffer. So it means whether I like it or not at some point in time I have to be in charge. And I might be taking my masters leh? I have some other plans for it as well. Hmm.

On lighter note, I can't wait for new year's eve and day and the weekend. Plenty to enjoy as it's packed with activities that I might not even have time for dear:x

Anyway, happy new year to all! Wish you all good health and happiness:)

P/S: Is my English failing me? I didn't mention or imply that anyone is snatching my friend, did I? Strange. I don't want friends who don't want me as a friend. Cos if they can be snatched away, I don't think they are worthy of my friendship and I blame them more than the person doing the snatching. This is my belief since I was in primary school.
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