Sunday, June 16, 2013
Just a random post....
Wow...
It's been a long time since I last posted.
Decided to just type a random post....An update on my life I guess. Not that a lot of people are reading and those who matter knows more or less what's going on in my life...
It's another year of ups and downs. Wanted to change route in my work life...but am glad that I realised what I really want, more money or pursue your passion?
I know, a lot of people do not have the luxury of pursuing their passion in work life and love their work. I feel under accomplished when compared to many of my friends who have much more earning power than I am. AND it doesn't help that I love shopping. Plus, I thought I had enough of teaching. So, I thought it would be a good idea to help my mom in her business or go sell property. I know, I know, it's BORING! At least to me it is, looking at houses and measurements and square feet and doing sales and everyday making sure you hit the sales target(that's for helping my mom too)....BLEHHH.
So I tried to get a licence to be an agent. It's interesting looking at different kinds of houses and the design and knowing some things about owning a property, but it gets boring when you go in depth cos there are policies and measurements and those very technical things like observing property market and stuff. BORING. ZZZzzzz.
And don't forget the fact that you will have no income for awhile. Zzzzz. Anyway, I hate it when I give things up halfway. But I also dreaded being a property agent.
To cut long story short, I am glad I have supportive loved ones around me who want the best for me. One friend helped me realised I am still the happiest when I am with children. Another told me it is important to work for something you like rather than just for money, as she calculated the number of hours that I needed to spend at work and if I dreaded it, I would be spending a lot of my time in misery. Which I did. The best thing is, of course, Dear's support. It is important, to have your life partner wanting the same goals as you.
I am glad his goal is not to just earn more money blindly. Of course everyone likes to earn more money, but some people are just money-driven. As long as they can earn more, any job goes. But Dear told me I shouldn't just work for the sake of more money. That I should pursue my interest, since there is an opportunity that presented itself and at least paying a median income, and also career advancement....I am just happy that he is supportive and not tell me stuff like, "Oh, you should be more driven and do the job that pays more. After all, you can't always do what you like."
Anyway, I am generally quite happy. There are so many things to learn and definitely not stagnant. I thought I don't want to teach anymore cos I am so sick of doing the same thing everyday. I am finally learning from a top notch school and I realise there are so many things I still need to learn in order to call myself an Early Childhood Educator. There are days I do feel like quitting but I am glad I have supportive superiors who are concerned about my professional growth.
Enough of my work life....About personal life...I realised a lot of my loved ones are getting married this year. It's like quite a few. I am happy for them. But I worried about my own too. I mean, I am a worrier, and what if I have a bad marriage just like my parents? Recently I happen to like a song that I feel it is meaningful and I want to play it at my wedding! It's Pink's "Just give me a reason" featuring Nate Ruess. The lyrics goes like this:
Right from the startYou were a thiefYou stole my heartAnd I was your willing victimI let you see the parts of meThat weren't all that prettyAnd with every touch you fixed them
Now you've been talking in your sleep, oh, ohThings you never say to me, oh, ohTell me that you've had enoughOf our love, our love
Just give me a reasonJust a little bit's enoughJust a second we're not broken just bentAnd we can learn to love againIt's in the starsIt's been written in the scars on our heartsWe're not broken just bentAnd we can learn to love again
I'm sorry I don't understandWhere all of this is coming fromI thought that we were fine(Oh, we had everything)Your head is running wild againMy dear we still have everythin'And it's all in your mind(Yeah, but this is happenin')
You've been havin' real bad dreams, oh, ohYou used to lie so close to me, oh, ohThere's nothing more than empty sheetsBetween our love, our loveOh, our love, our love
Just give me a reasonJust a little bit's enoughJust a second we're not broken just bentAnd we can learn to love againI never stoppedYou're still written in the scars on my heartYou're not broken just bentAnd we can learn to love again
Oh, tear ducts and rustI'll fix it for usWe're collecting dustBut our love's enoughYou're holding it inYou're pouring a drinkNo nothing is as bad as it seemsWe'll come clean
Just give me a reasonJust a little bit's enoughJust a second we're not broken just bentAnd we can learn to love againIt's in the starsIt's been written in the scars on our heartsThat we're not broken just bentAnd we can learn to love again
Just give me a reasonJust a little bit's enoughJust a second we're not broken just bentAnd we can learn to love againIt's in the starsIt's been written in the scars on our heartsThat we're not broken just bentAnd we can learn to love again
Oh, we can learn to love againOh, we can learn to love againOh, oh, that we're not broken just bentAnd we can learn to love again
So much like my love life:) I am sure everyone of us has been through this at some point of your love life relationship. I am learning to love everyday:)
Joyce Kho Ming Zhen ♥
5:45 PM
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