Saturday, October 28, 2006
Being lazy...
[So not doing my work...]Yo peepz...I am feeling so lazy and tired now...that i am not even doing what i am supposed to do, which is my assignments for readers theatre and creative drama. Seriously, i haven't even read finished the pages yet, let alone start my journal.Can you imagine that!!!! I only have one week left, for goodness sake...i am trying to motivate myself in doing my work, and i half succeeded, in a sense that i did not watch my Princess Hrs, even though i now possess the DVD!!!!That takes a huge amount of self discipline ok? Cos i want to watch Yul la....But, still, when i am reading my text, as in since i decided to not watch cos deadline so near, i took out my book to continue reading la....Guess what????? Nothing gets into my head!!!!!!!!!!!What is wrong with me???????????????? Ugh!!!!And i am going out already lor! So it's not possible for me to do any reading tonight. Cos i am going clubbing with dear and his pals. And staying over his place. So do you think i will bring my texts to study?? i mean, i seriously want to continue reading, cos i am panicking le, cos i only have like, one week left. And there are so many texts and journals. But, how am i going to get all the words inside my big head???? I am seriously trying to prepare myself for sch, cos i even bought a Canon printer for my assignments, due to the HP one broke down. Anyway, i had the HP printer since i was Pri 5. Really ancient le. UGH!!!!! I must be damn bored to start talking abt my printers....Gosh. Here i go again, being abit nutty. And something is seriously wrong with my internet. Or maybe it's my labbie. Either one. But pls don't let my labbie broke dowwnnn....pleasseeeeeeeeeeeeee!!! That's the last thing i need. Cos i am already very behind in my readings. If my labbie broke down, i cant do my last min work anymore!!!!!!!!! Cos i am already doing last min work, and if it breaks down, it's making the situation worse. Ok...i am going to try to psycho myself back to absorbing what i am reading.....
Joyce Kho Ming Zhen ♥
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Sunday, October 22, 2006
The Princess Hours
[Swooning over Kim Jung Hoon aka. Prince Yul]Yo peepz...I think Korean drama bug hit me recently....right after My Lovely SamSoon, i am addicted to Princess Hours....I fell totally in love with Prince Yul at first sight. That is even before i watched the drama serials, when i saw the photo of him....Gosh! Never thought after Hyun Bin and Won Bin and Song Seung Hun, i would like another Korean actor....especially like so fast and so much! I mean, Won Bin and Hyun Bin and Song Seung Hun are just handsome to me, so i like them to a certain extent, but not till......like this.....Meaning i like Kim Jung Hoon almost as much as i like Johnny Depp! Well, almost la. For those of you who have no idea who i am talking about, since you don't watch Korean drama serials, i have a picture for you. This is now, my favourite Korean actor....
Cute isn't he?!!! I mean, he's got the boyish kind of look, with a touch of sadness and gentleness. So i just fell for it la....Scary isn't it? Usually, when i find actors handsome, i don't go to the extent of saving their photos. Serious. In my labbie, i only saved photos of Johnny Depp(no surprise!), Legolas(Orlando Bloom as Legolas only, didnt even save his other photos, e.g. POTC ones), and Hyun Bin. But Hyun Bin is only a recent collection, when i was trying to save Kim Sun Ah(aka. SamSoon)'s photos, i just shun bian la, since i find him cute ma.Anyway, enough of the ogling and gushing over Prince Yul. Besides him, i also fell in love with Yoon Eun Hye aka. Crown Princess! I mean, she is soooooo cute and pretty la! Everytime i look at her, i want to protect her, esp when she cries in the show, with her big doe eyes!! i swear she bears some resemblance to Ruby Lin lor! And i totally cant understand why she can even be described as ugly in the show!!!Ugly, she?????!!!!!Yoon Eun Hye aka the Crown Princess ugly??!!! if she is ugly, what does that makes me? Hideous-looking?? She is much prettier than the actress who acted as the school belle in Princess Hours lor!!!! i reallly can't imagine what the producers are thinking, trying to pass her off as ugly and plain looking, they seriously have some eye problems...Which totally confirmed my suspicions about them having eye problems, when they try to pass Joo Ji Hoon off as a Crown Prince. I mean, come on lor!!!!!! That guy is ugly lor!!!! i even find him hideous looking at one point, when he tried to act cool, as he is supposed to be the crown prince, i find that he is too ugly for Eun Hye lor!!! I am sorry if i offended those of you out there who actually find Joo Ji Hoon, aka. Prince Shin aka. the Crown Prince handsome, but in my opinion, he is not only ugly , he is also not princely enough to be crown prince lor!!!Why, you would ask me. Why????? Cos he is soooooooooooooooooo skinny, that i called him the bean pole and bamboo stick lor!!!! Maybe it's also because he is always bullying Eun Hye aka. Crown Princess aka. Chae Kyung, cos like i mentioned every time i look at her i feel like protecting her cos she is so cute and pretty and innocent looking....But the fact is, i don't find he look like a prince right from the start, when he haven't bully Chae Kyung. I mean, he is so skinny, that when he wears those western suits (required as he is acting as a prince), he looks even more skinnier, like he is malnourished or something, cos the suits are usuallly long sleeved kind. I mean, whoever heard of a malnourished prince? Especially when his face looked like some illegal immigrant and drug addict in the show, he doesn't have the rich guy look, much less princely look!!!!!I mean, not many people can carry the messy hair look well, and his messy hair look made him look like a peasant aka. illegal immigrant aka. drug addict compared to Prince Yul aka. Kim Jung Hoon!!! How can the producers cast him as the main character, the prince???!!! They should get someone like Hyun Bin or Won Bin or Song Seung Hun, all of whom look great, rich and not to mention, princely in suits as they have the figure (as shown on My lovely Samsoon and Autumn in my Heart), they make Joo Ji Hoon look like a walking stick and clown lor!!!Even Bae Yong Jun, who is the other Korea actor that i find ugly, is more princely looking than Joo Ji Hoon!!! Simply because, Mr Bae looks much better in the suit than him anyway. Talking about Mr Bae, i seriously wonder why so many girls find him good-looking. A matter of preference ba, i guess. To me, Mr.Bae looks ugly without glasses, so with glasses, he is not so bad. You people should see him without his glasses. (Keep your glasses on, Mr Bae!)Oh ya, back to Joo Ji Hoon. The only nice thing i feel that he, the guy who acted as Prince Shin, has is when he smiled. That is all. He has got a nice smile. End of story. And maybe some photos he looked ok. Ok only ah!!And don't ever think that being tall is the criteria to good looking and princely lor. Take him, aka. Prince Shin aka. crown prince for example. He is sooooo skinny, and his height made it worse.Gosh, the producers really have eye sight problems. If not, maybe their standard of good looking and princeliness is different from me. Way different, so much so that, it's so freaking me out. Really lor. He doesn't match Yoon Eun Hye aka. Crown princess aka. Chae Kyung's good loooks lor. Ok lah, as i mentioned before, for those of you who find it offensive that i insulted Joo Ji Hoon, and also Mr Bae, i would not apologise, cos after all, it's a matter of personal preference....and anyway, you should have read my warning before you read my entries. Cos this is my blog, my diary and my territory. i have the right to write what i want here. Hehe.
Well, it's just a show anyway....and Kim Jung Hoon aka. Prince Yul definitely looks princely enough!! Duh.... that one is obvious la, and that is the only thing i feel the producers are not that blind la.....
Oh wellz....will watch it again...gtg....
Joyce Kho Ming Zhen ♥
12:04 AM
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Wednesday, October 18, 2006
What's wrong with MRT commuters?
[& Presenting....My list of favourite female artists....]
Hi peepz...
Actually, by right, i should be doing my wheelock college assignments...but...i am not in the mood to do it...By right today my mood is ok, cos i got to meet dear, and even bought shoes...but i think that is the problem. Why didnt the bank deduct my school fees? And seriously, i overspent this month. Oh wellz...i guess that is dampening my mood. Cos if the bank finally decides to deduct, they will find insufficient funds...cos like i said, i overspent. Anyway, as i mentioned, i should be in gd mood, cos my sup decided to have a talk with me today, and i told her about everything i am sort of unhappy about, since she asked me to tell her. Like the late shift, and the confirmation...oh, and though i am no longer unhappy about teaching K1 next yr, i told her what teacher lakshmi feels too...Ok, back to the subject that i want to blog about today. Well, i think one thing that really pissed me off was the MRT commuters....i mean, i am also a commuter, but i am really pissed with some of these inconsiderate fools...Have you ever alight from a train feeling that you need to fight a war with the people who are trying to board it? Or are you one of those suckers whereby you don't allow people to alight? Cos if you are one of those suckers, let me ask you a question. Or rather, two questions. Firstly, are you blind? Can't you see the arrows that are painted on the ground? The arrows that state the commuters that want to go in should stand at the side, while the commuters who are alighting would be required to stand in the middle? Oh, ok, so maybe you are blind. Which leads me to my second question. Are you deaf then? Didnt you hear the all-so-familiar announcement made from the lady, who always announce the names of every destination, saying " Please give way to alighting passengers before boarding." i mean, it is always announced. So much so that i remember it. Ok, maybe you don't understand what the so-famous lady said. Maybe u are, as dear put it, an imbecile. Or an idiot. Or maybe, you are just like the aunties, who don't bother whether they understand the announcement or not, cos they would just pretend they dont understand anyway. Whatever your reasons for blocking passengers like me for alighting cos you don't give way, let me tell you one thing. Don't blame me for elbowing or pushing you. Cos this is what i did. i don't even care whether you didnt push me. Cos i was once, trying to be polite and well mannered and all, by not pushing my way out cos people are blocking my bloody way. And guess what i got in return? i've gotten pushed. I mean, you blocked my way by standing in the middle of the exit/entrance and still have the cheek to push me? So, i learnt my lesson. Now, i just push anyone blocking my way. Even if they didnt push me to try and get in.I mean, i understand if it is morning traffic and you are rushing for work. Cos you dont want to be late for work and all. Still, there is no need to push. Cos, the train wont move away just cos passengers alighted. Maybe you are scared that you won't be able to get into the train cos there wont be enough space. I mean seriously, you think the size of the train is soooo small? And worst part is, i encountered all these people, after working hrs ok? As in, evening time when everybody is rushing home. I mean, for goodness sake, each train interval is like,a difference of few mins??? You mean, you cant reach home a few minutes late, like it's a matter of life and death???????? I mean, work wise, maybe not good, but even work place also wont be so bad to not allow you to be late for a few mins. Gosh...i really need to get all these thoughts off my less endowed chest. Cos, seriously, i have been unhappy about this for a loooooooong time. I dont even want to go on about how some people can be the exact opposites of these cant-reach-home-a-few-minutes-late people. The exact opposites, are those who, for no reason, walked very very very slowly, despite the fact that it is morning hr, when everyone is rushing for work. Anyway, that will be for my another blog entry. Now as promised, i have mentioned that i would mention about the female artist that i like....Well, last time, i used to like Fann Wong and Britney Spears alot. As much as i like Johnny Depp...but...now, it kind of wane off....dont get me wrong, i still like them, but not so much anymore.....till the Johnny Depp state...Now, my favourite actress...and i didnt even mention this anywhere.....cos as much as i like her, it's really plainly cos i find she is pretty. Very very pretty. So pretty that i just like her and go crazy about her. Now, dont get the idea that i am some lesbian or something. But cos i only like her because she is pretty, nothing else, so i cant say i like her as much as i like Johnny Depp...Okok, i am being long-winded again. She is none other than Kristen Laura Kreuk. For those of you who go "huh?" i forgive you. Cos she don't act much anyway. As in, she is not an A lister, cos she is not acting in any big movies yet...But, she is quite known as, Lana, in Smallville. Ya....i don't how to put it, but i fell in love with her prettiness at first sight....Cos her prettiness is that kind of sexy, mixed with child-like innocence and natural kind of pretty. She can don't put make up and look pretty. Cos her features are so defined...and her eyes are soooooo BIG!!!!! Though it should be hazel brown eyes, i swear, i feel her eyes look grey at certain angles....Ok, i don't want to go on any further about her...in case people start to think i am a lesbian...here are a list of my fav female artists:1) Kristen Laura Kreuk (Lana Lang from Smallville. You just need to look at her and you know there is no need for explanation.)2) Nicole Scherzinger (She is the lead singer of PussyCat Dolls. Need i say more? You dont think she is just another sexy pretty singer hor...she can really sing lor, cos she has a unique voice and strong vocals. Her solo single was tops at US i think, before she joined PCD....and she has asian blood in her.)3) Angelina Jolie (i think she looks good with Brad Pitt leh! Even though Jennifer looks great with him too, as they look like the golden couple, but her with him, also looks good cos they are both voted as the sexiest people alive by People's Magazine or some mag la. Anyway, i like her before she was with Brad, as she is a good actress, with a successful career, though labelled as a bad girl, she is still able to adopt children and do all the voluntary work. i mean, between juggling work and raising adopted children, she still finds time for voluntary work, and really going down to help the poor children, you really have to salute her for that! It doesnt hurt that she is pretty too, though not in the traditional way....)4) Fann Wong (ya, despite not being as crazy about her, she is still the prettiest Singaporean actress to me, and talented as well.)5) Cecilia Cheung (Totally pretty, with her sharp and defined features, for a chinese and a great actress too...she is no bimbo lo...though er, i cant say about her taste in men...)6) Vicki Zhao (Gosh, the big eyes of Huanzhu gege aka. My Fair Princess? Who can forget her prettiness and her brilliant acting as little swallow?)7) Nicole Kidman (Hello, she looks good in every hair colour! Be it, blond, brown, red....& her perfect defined features, with flawless radient skin? And she is a brilliant actress!!)8) Julia Roberts (Who dont love her megawatt smile??? Need i say more?)9) Liv Tyler (Seriously, just one look at her, esp her as Arwen in LOTR, is self explanatory. Just like Legolas. No need to explain more. Acting wise.....er......)10) Lindsay Lohan (Ok, the old her before she went crazy and dyed her hair blond....which makes her look like britney/paris/jessica clone....which basically means she doesnt stand out anymore. Cos she looks so much prettier as a red head, and does she know that it is very unique to be a red head? It's got to do with biology and genetic and all....dear told me before....)11) Joey Meng (the Ma XiaoLing in My date with the vampire....definitely pretty)12) Anna Hathaway (The pretty Princess Mia from Princess Diaries's movies? Hello, do i seriously need to explain this?)13) Julie Andrews (Gosh!!!! The so talented Julie??? The original actress of the famous classic The Sound of Music? i totally respect her lor! She can act, she can sing, she can dance ballet etc..., she is elegant, poised, graceful & she is pretty!!! I know she is not young anymore, acting as the Queen aka. grandmere in Princess Diaries...she still looks good, for her age!)14) Halle Berry (!!!! Do i need to explain? Just do yahoo search and you can see her photo and the Oscar best actress award she won....put these two together and you get the picture.)15) Hilary Duff (i seriously swear this girl is getting prettier as she grows older while Lindsay is destroying her prettiness...)16) Britney Spears (before she gone bonkers and stopped producing good music. What happened to songs like Baby, hit me one more time, and Overprotected?)17) Christina Aguilera (eh....not cos she is pretty....though she is quite pretty la...like her for her strong vocals!)18) Beyonce Knowles (Pretty, can sing, can act...what else?)19) Coco Lee (She is still very pretty and i still love her voice!)20) Scarlett Johanssen (She is pretty and young, aye?)Thats about all lah....so, dont ever think i am just crazy about handsome guys ok? i also like pretty girls too.So in conclusion, i like to look at good looking people, admire their looks, and if they have talent...i will be even more crazy about them...heeeOH...look at the time....i gotta go....
Joyce Kho Ming Zhen ♥
11:14 PM
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i am in no mood for anything....
[Feeling so down...]Yo peepz...Ya...i am feeling really down....don't really know why...just feeling really down. Of cos, partly is cos of him la..Anyway...i forgot to add on yesterday that i could not decide which skin i really want...so i sort of like chosen a few skins...all by the same author, photokicho...his/her skins are really very unique and to me, really nice, cos i was like, love at first sight when i saw several of his/her skins previews...So...expect me to change skin in a few days time or something...it's not that i am very free, which some people might think so, cos they would think i spent alot of time doing all these changing of skins...believe me, i already settled all the htmls of the other say, 3 skins, and they barely took me an hr, maybe just 30 mins. It is done so that i can just copy and paste the next time i want to change, which is like perhaps next wk, which by then i wont even have time to spare say, 10 mins to edit the htmls... Oh...sorry, here i go again talking abt my skins...basically, there was really nothing else to say, besides that i am feeling down partly cos of him, but also partly cos of....i don't know what...Maybe i am feeling down also because of thinking about the future whereby i wont have personal time due to my lessons, which is, like i mention earlier, one of the reasons why i am saving a few already edited blogskins that i want so that i need not go waste time to surf for new skins la...On the other hand, i don't even know whether i would have time to blog or not...About him....it's more like i don't feel he truly loves me....so, it's kind of depressing to feel like that...Due to alot of reasons...and it's too long a story for me to elaborate anyway.Anyway, miss Qi and Hui...wonder how they are doing....seems like Hui and i also getting more and more distant, even though i know if i need her she will be there...cos that's her, nice and loyal and always there for her friends...Kind of makes me wonder i am the one who didnt do a gd job as a friend...Ugh....i think i sound like i am self-pitying!!!! Gosh....i better stop thinking about all the depressing things...Haiz....there is work tomorrow....talk about dampening my own mood...Thats all for today la...
Joyce Kho Ming Zhen ♥
12:09 AM
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Tuesday, October 17, 2006
Oktober Fest....
[Shouldn't have gone on Sunday]
Hi peepz....
Ya...as you can see, i changed my skin again....despite suffering a heartache from it cos...
no more Johnny Depp aka Captain Jack... Too bad for those of you who missed my Johnny Depp skin....but still, i like the skin i am using now. Well, that is not the thing i want to blog about though. I wanted to blog about what happened on Sunday.
As i mentioned, i went to OktoberFest. Poor dear was so looking to it that he psychoed all of us to go. And...it was quite a disappointment.
The food was nice and all...but there weren't many people there, and they closed at eight. The people working there were telling us that we should have gone on Sat, cos the live band performed till late at night, rather than left in the evening, like on Sun.
And there were alot of people celebrating and dancing and all on Sat...so Sun, there were very few people. Which also means
that nobody danced anyway. Nobody except the people working there, and one or two people....So it wasn't... happening. Well, talking about the people working there, i would never thought i would see Gladys there. I even forgot her name till dear told me. Anyway, it's nice of her to remember me, cos back in sec school, she barely talked or even greeted me, so i was quite surprised to see her, and also have her greet me....Well, she is dear's god sister what....so probably that's why in the past she didnt greet me la...
Besides that, seriously, if not for dear, i won't be going lor...cos i am really not an alcohol person. Meaning, i don't like the taste of alcohol, and also, i am quite allergic to alcohol, though i don't get drunk easily. I am allergic in a sense that i will get ''sausage fingers", if i consumed a large quantity of alcohol, or high percentage kind of alcohol...then my fingers will swell....Hui has seen it though, and it's reli not a pretty sight to see...
And well, i seriously don't understand why people like alcohol, wine or beer or any drink that is alcohol related? I mean, it tastes bitter, for crying out loud. Why do people like bitter drinks? Can anyone who is reading my blog and likes to drink tell me why?
Dont get me wrong, i am not against people who drink...unless you are a drunkard...it's just that i don't understand lor...
And you people will ask me, then why do i still drink occasionally? Like for example, at this OktoberFest?
Seriously, for you people who need to ask me the question of why i need to drink during OktoberFest, i think you need to read up
what OktoberFest is about. Then, you would know why. I mean, seriously, who goes to Erdinger OktoberFest and drink soft drinks? So despite the fact that i am not into alcohol, of cos i at least need to try the Erdinger beer right? if not, i really wasted my 30 bucks.Other times that i drink...well, the only other times are during clubbing...which is like, once in a blue blue moon. And, i like the alcohol there....you know why? Cos i always drink
Vodka sprite or Burban
coke what!! So it tasted nice la....sweet with a little bitter after taste what....
duh. Oh wellz...back to the OktoberFest, here are some photos taken there...though not alot of photos, still...some taken...the photos are blur anyway, due to the lighting and all, but still roughly can see...
The live band, that was about to go...!!
All of us...with the man who works there who told us that we should have gone on Sat night....
All of us!! Eh..where is Kevin??
Cheers!!
We only took a few photos cos we didnt stay there for long...
Anyway, after that was quite fun....though i was
sianzationalized at one point...well, all of us went to play lan games...And, suddenly all lan games shops at bukit timah decided to close down...
So, luckily, around andre's house, there is a lan game shop that opens recently...which has all the new coms...
Well, i was having fun in a sense that, i was playing games. You know, to me, any game is fun. However, i was getting bored at a certain point during counterstrike was that, i kept dying. I am seriously not a gd player la...kept getting killed by the guys. Even Fion also bored of it cos she felt she kept dying, just like me la...
And seriously, it doesnt help much better when dear kept calling the two of us
, liabilities. Even though i know he is joking, i was really going to give up when he kept calling us that lor...But in the end i decided to continue cos watching them play is also
as boring. Oh well...it's just a game anyway, and i kind of like it, even though i kept kena killed la...though it is not a game i will keep playing....cos, killing people is really not nice, i still prefer the war craft game we played at Bukit Timah...It's really late...i better go off now....gotta work tmr...
Joyce Kho Ming Zhen ♥
1:10 AM
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Sunday, October 15, 2006
Should i change my skin or not?
[The trouble: Only like skins with navigations]Hi peepz...It's a Sunday. Duh. I am still learning to be strong enough to break things up.Anyway, my issue here is whether i should change my blogskin.You peepz will be wondering why, cos i just changed the skin like, a few days ago? Plus i totally love this skin cos it's a Johnny Depp skin?Ya. All that is still true. But the problem is, this skin is giving me some problems. For example, i don't know how to put it...but... this skin doesn't allow you to scroll SIDEWAYS!!!!Ya, big deal rite? To me, it's a big deal. Cos it means, there are alot of photographs that cant be seen. Cos they are too big for this skin. Usually skins that are too small for the photographs, they will allow people to scroll sideways, so that one can see the damn photos. But this one somehow don't. So if you see that some of the photos in my prev entries are too big, and you wanted to scroll sideways to see the whole photo, but you cant, you will realize how come some photos are not complete.Hey, the not-being-able-to-scroll-sideways is causing me more problems than just photos. There are also things like some of the words are cut off, cos the sentences are too long for the limited space...Seriously, i have never seen a skin like this. WHY must it be Johnny Depp's skin??? WHY?? Do you know how hard it is to find a JD skin, that is with navigations, and only him? This is the only one i found!The rest of them are skins with none navigations....and i don't like skins with non navigations!!!Reasons why i don't like skin with non navigations:1) The space for things like profile, etc. are limited...very limited, compared to skins with navigations...2) Skins with navigations look neater on the whole. Cos non navigations skins have everything displayed, so to me, it's kind of messy and clustered. I don't mean to offend ppl who like non navigation skins la...it's just a matter of personal preference.3) The navigation buttons are usually so coool...and pretty usually.4) People get to choose what they want to read. Seriously, some people just want to read your entries. They don't want to see your profile, or your tagbox, or your links....So if everything is displayed, they would have no choice but see everything...(haha, maybe this reason is a little...forced, but i feel there are definitely this kind of people la, cos there are all kinds of people in the world what....)5) Some people don't like messiness too. Like when they want to see blog entries, they just want to see only blog entries. They don't want to see everything else...Ya, that's about all. Even though only about five reasons, it's enough for me i tell you. Occasionally i do encounter pretty non navigation skins that i am tempted to download, but in the end decided against it...due to the above reasons...So....should i change skin or not? Cos if i change, plus the fact that i like skins with navigations, i definitely wont be using a Johnny Depp skin anymore...So, it's either Johnny, or new skin...or it's either, navigation vs. Johnny's other skins.....Ugh!!! I can't believe i have the time to bother about this!!!! Or rather, i am actually bothered about something as bo liao as this!!!! But, forget it. I will choose, as usual, navigations over Johnny....but i can't bear to give up Johnny just yet. So, i will change it maybe next wk or something. Meantime, i am just going to....prepare myself to meet him...which is also another depressing topic, if you ask me. That's about all today.
Joyce Kho Ming Zhen ♥
1:30 PM
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Too many things had happened
[''Roller coaster days'']
Helloz....
Haven't been in the best of moods for the past two days....Quarreled with him yesterday, kind of major one, and he was really angry with me...
Then, this afternoon, we met, then thought everything was fine again....Then, we had to have hard feelings for each other cos he doesn't want to do something and i wanted to...just to rekindle the past. But since he was so unhappy about it, it was kind of pointless.
So we didn't do what i had planned. Remind me never to plan anything in the future.
Then, we were okay again, cos i don't want to make a big fuss or anything, and we even had fun at Science Centre. And also went his house to watch some tv.
All was ok and good till i realised...he had her blog!!!! So OMG lor. So we had the talk. Now, as it is, i think it's neither a happy nor a sad ending.
Ya. Sometimes i feel he is still carrying a torch for her. Gosh, it's already so many years le. Why? Cos she is prettier, smarter, more kind, more sweet, more innocent, more lady like and virginal than me?
So, i decided, that if anymore this sort of nonsense is going to pop up, i am leaving him. i mean, i am not GOD, i can only take this much. Besides, i would like to have a guy who loves ONLY me and only have eyes for me, for goodness sake.
So, don't you think i have an exciting day? Or rather two excitiing days?
I think i had enough. I hope tomorrow's trip is ok. Or good. if not, i am going to burst and explode.
I think i need to find the courage to leave him sometimes. Enough of him and her.
Joyce Kho Ming Zhen ♥
2:49 AM
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Thursday, October 12, 2006
Changed my blogskin again...
[Finally! A Johnny Depp blogskin...]Yo peepz...Few things to report...besides the obvious fact that i had juz changed my skin...Firstly, i am having my flu again. Ya, like what's new? Maybe my michelle baby spreaded it to me...Secondly, my principal juz told me i would be posted to k1 next yr, when before that she told me, and the rest of the staff during meeting, that i was posted to nursery... like i was happy for nothing...wonder whether she would change her mind again...Thirdly, i am feeling happy, despite the fact that i am having flu, and still gotta go work and tuition tmr, cos, the weekends are coming!! Hope me n dear have a happy weekend la...Fourthly, i am going to post some photos of my meeting with Steph on mon. It was really fun meeting her, cos i not only found a new salmon sakshimi lover, she also shares the same taste in terms of movie actors and movies...which is really fun...*Think Johnny Depp, Edward Scissorhands and Legolas and Nicole Kidman*N lastly, my new blogskin! Do you guys like it? N i also changed my tagbox la...tink there is something wrong with tagboard, so now i am using cbox...thanks to steph's recommendation...I simply love my new skin...well, i like all of the skins that i used before, but this one especially cos, no surprises, of Johnny Depp, aka. Captain Jack.Well, seriously, some of my friends don't know why i like Johnny Depp. Cos, Johnny Depp is old enough to be my father. He is as old as my mum. But still, i am crazy about him. Following are some of the reasons why i am obssessed with only him:1) He is gorgeous n sexy, as he looks good in every kind of style, be it pretty boy kind or rock boy kind or pirate kind or bad boy kind...short hair or long hair, n he is the one of the few guys i find looking good with a moustache. (You can see some of his photos under my profile)2) He is one of the few actors who looks good even when he grows old.3) Face it. Truth is, besides being good looking, this guy does have talents. Be it acting, whereby he has acted different kind of roles, (and he is selective about it) be it good guy or bad, e.g. an author cum psychotic killer in Secret Window, a wacky pirate in Pirates of the Caribbean, a refined and educated olden English man in Finding Neverland, a transvestite in Before Night Falls, a science created being in Edward Scissorhands, a CIA hitman in Once Upon A Time in Mexico, etc... The list is endless. N mind you, he selects his role not according to banking in on his good looks, but roles that are challenging. 4) He is HUMBLE and true to himself. Like what you see is what you get. He still feels that one day he will go back to be like the poor and barely-get-by fella before he got into Hollywood. As he said "Tomorrow, it'll all be over, n i will go back to selling pens again". He is also the kind of actor who will greet fans.5) Which girl don't like a guy who loves kids? Johnny Depp simply loves his children. In fact, according to him, he only realized what life is about when his children are born. N he always wear the bracelet his daughter made for him...so aww....6) Unlike a certain attention-seeking-jumping-couch actor, he is very down-to-earth and low profile. He used to be very rebellious and stuff when he was younger, say when he was in his twenties. At least now, he is a bad boy turned good husband, and keeps a low profile and mature, unlike a certain jumping couch actor, who is as old as Johnny is, but still act like a kid. 7) N he seems to bear an uncanny resemblance to my boy...at least to me la!There are plenty more reasons...but i don't want to sound like i am a psycho or starting a debate here or something...so...here are just some reasons...Well, of cos there are alot of other hunks i like, but i juz simply like them cos they are handsome. End of story. I am not crazy abt them or whatsoever. So here are a list of names of actors whom i find good looking, but not so crazy abt them that i am associating my name with them, if you get what i mean. Actors whom i find hunky:-Orlando Bloom as Legolas!!!!!(Like who don't find him gorgeous as Legolas? If you don't, you need to get your eyes check.) Anyway, i only juz find him good looking, acting wise, er...-Hugh Jackman (Excuse me, i need not explain why, cos looking at him is self explanatory. For your info, he is another guy whom i like almost as much as Johnny Depp cos of his hunkiness and good guy image, except that like Orlando, he seemed to be not versatile in his acting...or at least, most of his roles are always portraying him to be some kind of hero) -Edison Chen (He is cute lor. Very good looking in a mixed-blood cum devilish grin cum bad boy cum innocent guy lor...totally swoon worthy. But, only swoon worthy...talent wise...er...)-Daniel Wu (The Edison Chen lookalike. Maybe shd be the other way round. But, anyone who looks like Edison Chen is definitely hot.)-Stuart Townsend (Stuart who? You will ask? Remember Queen of the Damned's Lestat? No longer the-jumping-on-couch-guy in Interview with Vampire...but him...ya, as you can see, judging by his most recent acting is only in The League of the Extraordinary Gentlemen, and only a small role, as the main actor is Sean Connery...i cant really say whether he has talents in acting or not...)-Hyeon Bin (Oh...who won't fall for this guy who fell for Sam Soon?)-Song Seung Hun (Gosh...who will forget the brother who fell in love with his sister[though not related by blood] in Autumn in my heart?)-Won Bin (Mentioning Autumn in My Heart, who will forget the handsome Won Bin acting as a guardian angel to the main actress?)-Elijah Wood (Who will forget the big-baby-blue-eye hobbit?)-Daniel Radcliffe (Hope i am not going to be accused of being a paedophile at this, but who will miss the, again, big-blue-sparkly-eyes Harry Potter? Esp when i am a Harry Potter fan?)-Brad Pitt (Face it. He is still as gorgeous, in fact, more gorgeous, as he grows older...)-Josh Hartnett (Yes, the handsome guy in Pearl Harbor. To me, he is better looking than Ben Affleck)-Chris Pine ( The Princess Diaries 2: Royal engagement's Nicholas Devereaux!!!!!! Hello! Do i even need to explain why??This guy is gorgeous lor! even my best friend think so...rite Qi?)-Wong Lee Hom (Ok, i admit, he is more of the singer than actor, but he is good looking WHAT! so i put him here la...)-Nicholas Tse (I dun like him de. Cos i like Cecilia Cheung, and i think he like, break her heart and now still with her...so weird. But i cant deny he is handsome.)-Sean Connery (ya, he is old enough to be my grandfather, but he is still a hottie, for his age.)-Pierce Brosnan(Ditto)-Colin Farrell (He is another actor that looks good in every kind of style la, like in Miami Vice, he looks so manly with his moustache, and in the Phone booth, he looks so boyish...)-Tom Welling (He is gorgeous la, n his figure, drool worthy, like Hugh's. Though in Smallville, i watched it not cos of him, more of Kristen Kreuk, but i will reserve her when i make a list of actresses whom i find pretty)That is about all....maybe there are more but i cant recall anyone else yet...it's kind of long rite? So like i mentioned earlier, i would write about my list of pretty actresses in another entry...For now, it's photo time...Ya, it was really fun meeting Steph, what with her nice and humorous cum crappy character, kind of like Mel! Hee... I still laugh when i think about the "Legola....." joke. It's an inside joke...hehe...Me and Stephanie...she edited this photo...so it looks so artistic now...:)
Another photo of me and Stephanie
And lastly, Lina sent me the photos that we took during our Sakae trip...finally, a photo of me and Lina together:)
Thats all for now...long day tomorrow...
Joyce Kho Ming Zhen ♥
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Sunday, October 08, 2006
Feeling bored
[Sianzationalized....esp with my flu...]Hi peepz...Ya. It's me again. i am feeling so sianzationalized...so i decided to blog.By rite, i shd not be feeling sian, cos i have alot of work to do. But i guess that contributed to my being bored la. Add on to it is my famous flu. Ya, wat with the stupid haze and all. Seriously, what's wrong with certain indonesians? Note that, ok? certain Indonesians, i am not trying to start a racial or whatever war here. I meant certain grp of them anyway. The grp that kept burning forest? I mean, do they enjoy the haze and smoke? Do they enjoy it so much that if for juz one year, they dun burn anything, they will feel downright uncomfortable cos its becoming a ritual or habit to them? Seriously. I reli want to noe what they are thinking. The ppl who burnt forest. Maybe they enjoy the smoke juz like smokers enjoy the smoke from their cigarettes. So what are they thinking? Juz like i want to noe what guys are thinking. Somehow the guys in dear's gang, dear included, they like to use her as a rebound. I mean, they will somehow find her if they encounter breakups.Whats wrong with these ppl?? Whatever la. Anyway, today...i got tuition later on. n after that i would meet dear. At his place again la.Talking abt tuition, i wonder whether the parents wud complain anything to me anot. After all, i was scolding their child the prev time i went there. When she forgot something, that we had done so many times, it reli made my blood boil.Oh wellz...haiz...talking abt the gang...Double haiz. I reli wish to see gene instead of her. At least gene and i clicked. Hope gene forgets dre soon. Ya. i will miss her for the time being. Hope she recovers n invite me out on sushi trip again. Or tell me abt her new love life. Sometimes, i feel happy for her to be out of this relationship. Seriously. Cos she is too innocent n the kind of when-I-am-in-love-i-will-give-my-all kind of girl. Meaning she will keep trying n not give up kind of girl....N andre cant take it cos, its too much of an emotional work for a person who values his freedom so much. On the other hand, i will oso be glad to see if andre cant forget her in like a few months time. Cos that's when he noes she is the one. Then its gd see, cos i wun see her le! Thats plain selfish of me i guess...But i oso noe that if he does go back, its reli true love....and who dun wish to witness true love?Oh wellz...here i go again...going crazily philosophical...or rather, i am not sure whether i am being philosophical, since i am not that smart to be a philosopher....Ya..later go over dear's place to study...after tuition...Sushi trip tmr!! But sianz...cos working late shift again...Gtg....thats enuf crap for today.
Joyce Kho Ming Zhen ♥
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Awkward Day
[What an awkward day...]Yo peepz...Today, i did alot of things. However, i didnt bring my boy to the Sunflower Vegetarian as planned. Firstly, i went for facial. Ya, u heard me rite. Facial. Nope, not a free one at my mom's beauty spa, but at Dermafloral. For those of u who found this name familiar, it's cos this salon is the one that is always having road shows n promotions. I was sort of conned into it, cos it's cheap n all. Not that it's that bad. After all, their salon looks reli nice, like my mum's. Perhaps even better in terms of deco, but smaller than my mom's. N they didnt make my face rot or something. But it's not as gd as they claimed either. N i didnt realize they are not exactly as gd as they claimed n felt conned till my mom told me she was oso approached n she went before so as to see what product they use n all, n she told me it's not as gd as they claimed n it's not cheaper either, it's juz the way they do to increase sales. But what reli made me hesitate to go n reli fully realize it's all sales talk when i used the product sample they gave after i bought their coupon. I used n guess what? it made my skin oilier. In fact, it made my skin damn oily, that i had pimples popping out. N if u noe me, i m not someone who has pimples, except during my menstruation. i mean, i have other problems like white heads n black heads, but not pimples, thanks to my mom's products.So, when i used n realized it's oily, i didnt use it anymore. So when i was approached by any other salons, i didnt try le. N i was approached by the same company twice lor. Anyway, back to my day, of cos, the facial was relaxing n all, but i did facial before. I noe definitely, after facial, ur skin will glow. I tell u, DermaFloral made my skin glow, but with alot of oil! My boy kept saying my skin is sooooo glossy, translation, oily. N gosh! i used my fingers to juz brush across, n OMG....the layer of oil on my finger looked like the oil u squeezed out from the fries!Even the facial i did at a non branded, auntie kind of salon, was better. Cos at least my skin glowed with radience, not oil. Gosh. u will never catch me agreeing to any promotions or watever again. N i wun be so nice to these ppl oredi, if they ever pushed me into buying la. Cos being nice to them is being cruel to myself. Lucky today, the lady who served me was reli nice in the sense that, tho they did try to promote, they dun push u. Well, that aside, after that, went to dear's sch with him. As usual, he commented that his NUS is better cos got Subway n Mcdonalds, while my ex sch, Ngee Ann, dun even have any. Which, for once, i totally agree with him. Then, we met up with mike n andre....and guess who else came? N once again, nice dear lied to me. Cos somehow, i noe she is coming. Dun ask me why. A girl's instinct i guess. Cos, i somehow feel she is coming, when andre, called dear n asked him something. Tho i didnt hear what he asked, i noe something is amiss when dear said something like, "Come along la, if she wants....(andre speaks) dun care abt her la." Somehow, i noe it's andre asking abt whether she can come, n whether i wud mind. Cos seriously, who is the oni person that will make all of them asked whether i am ok with it anot if that person comes along? N oso the fact that who else dear will say "bu yao guan ta la" when it's concerning abt her coming?Seriously, i noe all along that, they actuali wanted to ask her to come join us on outings a couple of times, cos i heard them saying she is coming, then after that, somehow she didnt turn up. N there was once whereby Fion asked how come she didnt come, when they told her she was supposed to. N they gave their famous eye movements. Come on la. I may not be gd at Science, studies, sports, etc. But i m not stupid either. i noe that whenever they left certain things unexplained, it is to avoid making certain ppl unhappy. Which, in this case, involving her, i totally noe what they meant.I am touched that in order to avoid making me unhappy, they go to the extent of not asking her along. N oso touched that andre asking abt whether i am ok with it, tho i am upset that not oni dear lied to me when i asked whether the person andre asked is her , and that whether he said "bu yao guan ta la" the 'ta' meant me, cos he said i am over suspicious. N he juz said that andre is bringing a fren along and asked whether mike wud mind another fren come along, that's why he said "bu yao guan ta la"I mean seriously la, even i oso not that stupid. Mike mind more company? Like since when?? Mike loves having ppl ard. He dun even mind having me ard even when the person he wanted to meet was only dear. But i noe better than to pursue it cos dear wud deny it, juz to avoid a quarrel n the trouble of explaining n all. So, i juz kept quiet, rather than insisting on him telling me the truth. Seriously, he wud juz turn the tables ard n said i am juz being so paranoid. N i am totally trusting my instincts, after all, after so many incidents, esp the one abt his ex, i noe the extent that he cud lie to. As long as i have no evidence, he wun admit. Juz so to avoid trouble. Cos he feels telling me the truth will be troublesome and may lead to quarrel. N he is the kind of person who dun like hassles.So since i noe the truth, n tho i dun like his lying, i decided to let it go cos i dun want to pick a fight either. N since i was the one in the past, made a big fuss when he told the truth, i couldnt entirely blame him. So, since i dun want to make a big fuss out of this, n ruined my r/s cos of this, i did something i dun do in the past....i tolerated.Not that seeing her was as bad as i tot it was. After all, even tho i dun like her, i dun wan to be the bad guy who prevented them from meeting someone they are close to. Well....One of the reasons why i dun like her, besides her being involved when me n dear broke up the prev time, was that i rem she totally ignored me when she first saw me. I seriously dun mind her coming along, as long as i dun feel left out or awkward....n judging by how she treated me the prev time and add on to it was that she was involved when me n him broke up....i noe i wud feel uncomfortable and awkward....So when i saw her today, i didnt even bother to make any attempt of talking to her at first, as my resolution was that if she is going to treat me as if i dun exist, i am going to do that too. Why shd i give someone respect when the person gave me none? So at first, when she didnt speak to me, i was moody, as she oni talked to, as usual, the guys. Cos i felt awkward, uncomfortable and left out....esp since they were talking abt some past that i was not involved in, i was pissed n bored. Luckily, Mike was there. He was nice, as usual, and cud tell i was moody. N dear, as usual, knowing he did something wrong n i discovered n yet he could not admit, treat me well, trying not to let me feel left out, but kept holding my hand n putting his hand on my shoulders.iThings started to turn better when she spoke to me. If u noe me, u wud noe i am a softie at heart. If u are nice to me, i wud definitely be nice to u, no matter how bad u were to me in the past. So, of cos i talked to her. As of now, i wun say we are getting along so well that we are exchanging numbers, telling secrets and all, but at least i am more comfortable with her. i doubt i will be good frenz with her, but at least, she can come along to our outing the next time without me showing attitude face la...that's all i am saying. O wellz....i dun even want to start on andre asking her along in the first place....but at least he asked whether i wud mind la. Whatever la. Tho its reli awkward, i have oredi survived it. Anyway....gtg....zzzz...Oh ya! Totally looking forward to meeting Steph on mon...n october fest next sun. Hehe...=) Something to look forward to next wk...
Joyce Kho Ming Zhen ♥
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Saturday, October 07, 2006
Chg my skin..Again!
Hey peepz...Ya, i chg my skin....again....i was feeling sianz of my prev nonsense skin la...i mean, i am not sick of it, cos its nice n all, but reli bored of it...But this time, the title shows...so u can see from my prev entries, there are two titles instead of one. One out of the two is typed written by me cos all my prev skins dun show the title column given by blogger...Oh wellz, i like this new skin...i guess its cos the backgrd is dark...so how, do u ppl like it? I was supposed to be doing my assignment/journals actuali....but i am feeling kind of down rite now...with....haiz, who else? Him la...By rite i was feeling happy earlier on, what with meeting lina for dinner at Sakae, and i collected my specs....which i totally love, cos its reli nice looking, n it made me looked less auntie than my prev specs....Anyway, i finally ate my fav....*slurp* salmon sashimi!! Below are some pics of me n lina...enjoying our meal...
Me! With my new specs...if u tink i look auntie in this, u shd see me in my older specs...haha.
And pretty and cute Lina....makes me want eat sushi again....By rite, there were more photos...no, this time not cos i am lazy to upload the rest, but the rest are with Lina..hehe.So this is the brighter part of my day....Abt why i am upset...well, shd be cos of my insecurities....tho it's nice of him to tell me the truth.....and it's definitely better than he hide it from me, but, by continuing to teach her sister tuition, it's reli not making me feel very secure and very much better....And it doesnt reli help that he is like, not wanting to meet me, unlike the usual him, juz cos he is doing something with andre. U see? i tink i am getting more and more paranoid, thanks to him. Ugh!! Oh wellz...as much as i wish to scream at him, i noe that it's not only not going to work, but will not make things work, and worse part is, he wun listen to what i am saying and wud in fact, feel i am juz being childish and creating, as Gene calls it, drama. Which will all equate to: Me feeling miserable, n him juz annoyed n hurt. So why bother? Sometimes, i reli feel, a long term relationship requires alot of hard work. Reli alot. Alot of sacrifices too. Like, compromising ur own needs so as to make a relationship work. Like giving in. Like tolerating. N i am no gd at all that. Cos i used to believe in a fairytale world of finding the rite guy, in which one need not work on it. The guy will juz treat his gal like a princess. It's quite harsh when i found out that in reality, that rarely exist. Unless perhaps u find the perfect goody kind of guy. Then, there will be the problem of the guy being soooo goody n nice, that there is no chemistry. Ugh!!What the hell is wrong with ME???
Joyce Kho Ming Zhen ♥
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Monday, October 02, 2006
[Quite a happy weekend..]
[Quite a happy weekend...]Hi peepz!!Well...my weekend is ok la....not bad...even tho it started quite badly, due to my insecurities, but still...after a walk and a new hairdo(more like dye which i do usually when i am unhappy) and spending money on a pair of new specs...i felt better, at least, more calmed down. N the specs is something i need cos my right eye like getting worse, tho thank goodness my left eye actuali decreased by 25 degrees...Well...anyway, wat made me insecure and sad was him la...dun wish to talk abt it cos it's over le. On a happier note, today is Photos Time...i tink i owe alot of photos...but i wun upload the older ones cos i dun rem what i promised u guys to upload le....Well, on Sat, after my work n my hairdo, i met dear as planned and went for the ktv trip, as planned. As planned, dear asked all of us to wear the red bull t-shirts, which he bought for us. Us, meaning, the gang, me, kevin, fion, andre, n haiz...gene, n of cos dear himself oredi had one. So all of us muz wear it to go there la. i reckon to dear we will look like we belong to some gang if we wear the t-shirt. So i said we belonged to Red Bull Gang la. We reli did. i was kind of relunctant to wear cos seriously, i dun wear t-shirts. i mean, i oso dun reli like the red bull shirt la....but i dun want to make dear look bad u see, n hurt dear or anything cos he bought it for me....so i wore it, but in case nobody wears it, i brought another top to change into la. Turns out oni andre minds lor. Kept wearing this buttoned ah pek striped collared top n hid his red bull shirt inside. i told him his top is like ah pek la, n he seemed proud of it. Haiz...talking abt him, reminds me of gene....wish they are together cos they seemed so perfect for each other. Pity ah pek doesnt see it that way la. Anyway, the photos are as follows....
All of us...minus one member, presenting....The Red Bull Gang!!
Dear is reli very happy and enthusiastic abt the singing, with Kevin n Andre. 
Another pic of happy dear with Kevin and Andre...
The three musketeers in the Red Bull Gang, in short RBG.
Mischevious aye? anyway, i got more photos coming up, taken on Children's Day...i miss Alastair sooooo much! Didnt realize just how much until today, when he was not here...n seriously, i duno whether i can manage the new boy, Anzo. Gosh. i seemed to have children with interesting names aye? Ludovic, Alastair, and Anzo. wowx.
Anyway, my babies....
*Sobx* My Alastair doing the "yoyo"..lolx. so cute la! He was very curious abt my cam.
Of cos, not forgetting my fav....Cute Xiao Mei Nu Michelle....Cute n pretty rite? Of cos la!
My Marco! Tho not from my class, still one of my fav, cos he is so cute, n he is wearing this so adorable jappie outfit i cant resist taking his picture la!
Of cos, n my Ludovic from my class la! He is so handsome that day.
And do u tink i didnt take pics with these cute chn? Of cos i did!
Me and cute n pretty Michelle!
Me and my *SobX* Alastair baby!
Me and the Jappie Marco(mind u, he is 100% pure chinese)
And last but not least, my Ludo!!
Hehe....Cute eh? N on that day, all of them seemed so happy, cos we allowed them to do something they loved doing, DANCE AND JUMP AND MOVE! Well, usually, we dun encourage them to do that cos they wud hurt themselves, wat with the class so small and so many rowdy chn, but that day, we let them do wat they like! N they seem to like it, judging by the photos....
What do u think? They surely seemed happy. Hehez...
Oh...tmr i got to attend course...early in the morning parents of the new chn will again join our class to accompany their child, which oso means they get to see us teach...talk abt stress....
Thats abt all today...gtg...
Joyce Kho Ming Zhen ♥
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Joyce Kho Ming Zhen